well then...
my friends page has become like... wow... I haven't checked it for about 3-4 days as far as I remember... and I thought it'd be like it used to be. If I didn't check for a day, I had 2 pages to catch up on. This time... 4 entries. Good job on never posting anymore :D.
So I pretty much almost died this weekend. Not physically, but in spirit. So close. I'm glad that seems to be fixed... I hope so anyway, I don't want to die. That would just... suck. Ok then. Don't wanna go into that anymore.
The job's been going good, I actually got them to give me a table tonight- $10 tip. Relativly cheap bill too, so that's good. I think next week I'm on the floor. That's awesome, because Saturday night, Amber(another new girl) made almost $200 in tips. One night, hourly pay plus that. Then again, it was a weekend and she did get some big tables. Anywho... can't wait to start makin money.
Mmmmm music. Holy shit, I think I have 5 pages of myspaces bulletins to catch up on. Luckily, I don't look at most of them.
I realized something important yesterday. I'm all gone- 100%. Some of you may know how difficult it is to TRULY get in... to the real me. Most of you haven't. Even if you have, you're never all the way there, not even close. Kevin's got my heart, completely. I have nothing left for myself.
And I am completely ok with that.
And as much as it scares me to death, I love it at the same time. I must be your standard roller-coaster riding thrill-seaker... loving something that scares me so badly...
So I pretty much almost died this weekend. Not physically, but in spirit. So close. I'm glad that seems to be fixed... I hope so anyway, I don't want to die. That would just... suck. Ok then. Don't wanna go into that anymore.
The job's been going good, I actually got them to give me a table tonight- $10 tip. Relativly cheap bill too, so that's good. I think next week I'm on the floor. That's awesome, because Saturday night, Amber(another new girl) made almost $200 in tips. One night, hourly pay plus that. Then again, it was a weekend and she did get some big tables. Anywho... can't wait to start makin money.
Mmmmm music. Holy shit, I think I have 5 pages of myspaces bulletins to catch up on. Luckily, I don't look at most of them.
I realized something important yesterday. I'm all gone- 100%. Some of you may know how difficult it is to TRULY get in... to the real me. Most of you haven't. Even if you have, you're never all the way there, not even close. Kevin's got my heart, completely. I have nothing left for myself.
And I am completely ok with that.
And as much as it scares me to death, I love it at the same time. I must be your standard roller-coaster riding thrill-seaker... loving something that scares me so badly...