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I am so tired of trying to be with you. I want to but I can't wait forever. It seems as though you don't even care. You never call and when I'm around you flirt but are and complete ass and bring up shit from the past. I know you hate it but Bobby calls me, or tries to, and I won't talk to him. He would treat me right. He does treat me right, I just ain't around him to see it for all it is. I know I can move on, and get someone who will treat me right, but for some god-damn reason I want it to be you that I am with. I have no clue why honestly, cause you probably could care less if we even talked or not. I start school tomorrow so all this immature, running around and getting fucked up is over for me, cause I want to have a life. Unlike you, all you want is that, WHAT A GOD-DAMN LIFE! Its sad to say that I love a 26year old who has nothing but the clothes on his back and a sack of pot. It really is sad to. I want more for myself than that, and you should want more than that for yourself. Your being stubborn and to be honest you have no reason to be. Cause I'm through. Completely. From here on out, it is up to you to make shit work. I am not coming over to just see you anymore, I won't. I will not call you, if you wanna talk you know how to use a phone. And sense you have made this so clear that you don't want me, I might just have to take Bobby up on some of his plans. Since, you know, he does call and attempt to talk to me. It's funny cause you never call and I'm dying to talk to you, and he calls at least once a day, and I won't talk to him. I even know bobby is better for me. He's Gorgeous, not from Grayson co., and has money coming out his ass, cause why? he has a job. But the main reason, he cares about ME, he cares what I'm doing, he cares who I'm with, he cares is he's hurt me or not. He never has though, and I don't think anyone can like you. But I though I would let you know this, I'm through with you even though I care so much casue I want more for myself. The only way anything will work from here on out is if your the one putting effort into it, cause I won't. I'm gonna start having fun, start going to school, get a job, and try to find someone who will treat me with respect and wants me to have a good life. Oh, and one more thing, I'M NOT A LIAR, AND I'M NOT A WHORE, SO STOP TELLING PEOPLE THAT AND DEFIENTLY STOP TELLING ME THAT TO MY FACE. I DON'T CARE WHAT YOU THINK ANYMORE CAUSE YOU DON'T CARE WHAT I THINK!!!!!!