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I hope everyone has an amazing day tomarrow!
well lets see...last night will came to my window. it was nice to see him, he was there for a few mintues then the dog barked, he ran, never came back. i dont want him to come back, i was just happy i saw him and was able to wish him a merry christmas. im excited that him and chantelle are having a baby in april. im glad they are still together.
adam called this morning, well i called yesterday because i was upset and i always used to talk to him about that, so he called to see what was wrong. i was dreamin about him then bam he was on the phone. i was happy. I really hope Kaitlin doesnt hurt him, i know how much he likes her and i want the best for him, i want him to be happy and if i cant make him happy then oh well at least he found someone who could. i hope they end up getting together and i will support him in every way possible, and i will always be here for him if he ever needs to talk! He said he will call me tomarrow....i really hope he does, it would mean alot to me!
MERRY CHRISTMAS EVERYONE! please keep in mind that christmas is NOT about presents it is about the birth of christ. so please keep him on your mind tomarrow
I am so happy i have the friendsd that i have, i love you all so much. i have lost so many friends because i thought they were really my friends well it turns out they were fake. im so glad that i have some real friends....Tina, Holly, Kayla, Sharmaine, Max, Adam Without these people in my life i wouldnt be the person that i am today! i love you all so much! thank you for everything!
BEAUTIFUL DISASTER-KELLY CLARKSON reminds me of Adam so much.
He drowns in his dreams
An exquisite extreme, I know
He's as damned as he seems
And more heaven than a heart could hold
And if I tried to save him
My whole world could cave in
It just ain't right, it just ain't right
Oh and I don't know
I don't know what he's after
But he's so beautiful
Such a beautiful disaster
And if I could hold on
Through the tears and the laughter
Would it be beautiful?
Or just a beautiful disaster?
He's magic and myth
As strong as what I believe
A tragedy with
More damage that a soul should see
And do I try to change him?
So hard not to blame him
Hold on tight, hold on tight
Oh 'cause I don't know...
I don't know what he's after
But he's so beautiful
Such a beautiful disaster
And if I could hold on
Through the tears and the laughter
Would it be beautiful?
Or just a beautiful disaster?
I'm longing for love and the logical
But he's only happy hysterical
I'm waitin' for some kind of miracle
Waiting so long,
So long
He's soft to the touch
But frayed at the end he breaks
He's never enough
And still he's more than I can take
Oh 'cause I don't know
I don't know what he's after
But he's so beautiful
Such a beautiful disaster
And if I could hold on
Through the tears and the laughter
Would it be beautiful?
Or just a beautiful disaster?
He's beautiful
Such a beautiful disaster
I have lettin go of him. i know i have said this before but.....i am letting go of him. I want him to be happy with everything he achieves in his life. if its not with me, then so be it. He will always be in my heart and i would love to be friends with him! so adam if you get this....your an amazing boy and you taught me more about life than anyone could, you helped me grow into a better person and you showed me the strength that i needed to get back on my own two feet. and i thank you for this. i thank you for being the person you are. You taught me more than you will ever know! i wish you the best of luck with everything and i hope you have the best Christmas that you could possibly have! Remember to pray and you will get through anything!