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I'm overwhelmed with new things and changes in my life...but somehow being overwhelmed isn't bothering me as much as it used too...Alyssa gets her letter today, its official...we are never going to be friends or talk again. Seems kinda weird typing this, thinking back to graduation but somehow i know this is for the best...for both of us...Ok now back to other subject..I'm scared of making the same mistakes that she made. Friends grow on eachother, and i seriously hope i didnt pick up any of her fucked up mistakes...I've gotten closer to bj than i could of ever imagined and i promise to myself that I will NEVER do the fucked up things that she did to him. Once again, i never want to loose all of my friends, something she kind has lost...I guess being stuck at home everyday makes me bored and yet wonder a lot about this year. I get sooooooo excited but there are the times of being scared of fuckin up things...I just want to be there already with my close friends...and my boyfriend (bj) It's nice to go back to school knowing we have gotten closer but I really do love him sooooo much...i can't wait to spend time with him this year!