She's suddenly beautiful... We all want something beautiful... I wish I was beautiful...

[tapicide]

i'm going crazy. it's official. i think i have to create these kinds of situations for myself for some reason. like i need drama. i need to feel like shit. i need to feel the anxiety and the pain. uuuugh. and it's so hard to fall asleep when i feel like this.

it's also hard to fall asleep when my roommate is playing loud dance music in the room next to me. uuuuugh.