How To Mend A Broken Heart
How do you mend a broken heart anyone got any suggestions? I’m open to anything. I’ve had a broken heart for the past year and let me tell you it’s probably one of the worst things that can happen to someone. I mean how can a person tell another person that they love them and have nothing to back it up with? How can they play with your emotions and not feel like the lowest life forms on earth? To break another’s heart is a sacred sin, a heart is a blessing not an emotional treasure box. Someone once told me that and he made lots of sense. Even though I met someone I still think about how happy I could have been with him, it sucks donkey balls, to be left with that in mind, of what could have happened and how beautiful it could have been and then nothing, it’s a hard hit that sends you into shock at first and then you go thru this emotional roller coaster, you feel lost and out of touch with the world, and all you wanna do is cry and curl up into a little ball and hope that when you uncurl you will feel better. Just when you think it’s safe to uncurl it isn’t, everything reminds you of him/her, everything single little thing relates to something that happened between the both of you. Why must we torture ourselves? Then you wonder if they feel as miserable as you do, and you know that they don’t. Which makes you feel like shit. You won’t know what love is until someone breaks your heart, once that happens your scarred for a long time, until you get over it or you find someone else to fill out that void in your soul. At one point I thought I did find that someone to fill out that void, but now I’m not so sure, and it confuses the hell out of me. I know I have very strong feelings for this person, but it’s difficult for me to know what’s gonna happen in the future. Why must we let love dominate our lives I gotta get my priorities straight. I have loved and lost and a life without love is no life at all, I know this, but I have a feeling that life has many great and amazing things in store for me I’m excited to find out what they are gonna be. Anyways, I know I haven’t updated in a while, I can’t believe it’s may already. I’ve been going out a lot, it keeps my mind busy from other things(people) that I would rather not think about. Went to Jakes a bunch of times, Jakes is a bar for those of you who don’t know, and Wednesday I went to go shooting with krista and sal it was a really good day/night I think I got some good stuff. I’m doing a little project, I bought these cool looking note books the renaissance faire and I want to turn them into mini portfolios of black and white photography, the largest size print that I can fit on one page is a 5x7 print so that’s cool, I just have to go buy some black and white paper to start making some prints I haven’t been in the darkroom in such a long time, I’m excited about that, we aren't publishing this Wednesday so I’m gonna have some time on my hands to do many prints, I’m gonna put my best work in there. Thursday I went to the Getty museum with sal it was really cool, there was lots of good photography from some of my favorite photographers, like Dorothea Lange and Walker Evans, it was great. It was definitely a good inspiration, then after that bob invited us to go watch a movie at this home so sal and me went there, lg was there too, we watched reservoir dogs, despite what lg and bob say I like that movie. Bob fed us which was really cool of him he’s a good host I almost fell asleep on his bed, I know sal did for a few min because he was snoring. Friday night I went out with tony I had a lot fun he’s a funny guy, it was strange too, bc who would have thought....he invited and I said yes and we had fun, that’s what happened. Now I’m ready for all the shit talk I’m gonna get from people I don’t think anyone on our team knows that we went out tho, I would like to keep It that way, just Nic, but it’s Nic, my buddy, my pal, she knows everything about me. Well it’s not like I have anything to hide we just went as friends and that’s it, so I guess I shouldn’t be so apprehensive about it. Well tonight I don’t think I’m going out, I know Nic wants to go out, but my parents aren’t back from Mexico yet and I just found out that they aren’t gonna get here until about 8 or 9 p.m. tonight so I gotta be here when they get here. Sunday night at 10p.m. I have a game at Chino Hills can’t wait for that, but Sunday morning I have my first fast pitch game and I’m a little nervous because I haven’t practiced hitting fast pitch in a while and I have a feeling that I’m gonna suck, we will see. Well I gotta go now I’m gonna finish cleaning my room it looks clean , but it can be neater I know it can be. Well bye bye all!!!!!xoxo.