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its been a long while since ive written in here... so much has happen so many feelings i cant explain, things i dont want to feel, and things i wished didn't happen.
I'll start off with what started the whole thing.
My brother passed away. 4/4/07
I dont believeit. i choose to pretend it didnt happen and thats how i move on. I havent broken down like everyone else because i choose to keep it inside. Im mad at him. dont know what else i can say about it im just plain mad at everyone. My counselor at school and some co- worker deceide that its because i wont express my feelings any other way. yea ill cry once in awhile and yea ill blame myself but it doesnt stop me from being mad. I try not to be but i dont know what else to do.
im jealous of my brothers girlfriend my mom loves her more than me. end of story.
i fell behind in school, really behind i kinda stopped going because my way of dealing myself was to completly dedicate myself to work. i am a workaholic, i worked 80 hours a week for a good 3 months and i liked it. now im back in school trying to catch up, teachers are undertstanding and i cut it down to about 50 a week.
i feel lost.
I'll start off with what started the whole thing.
My brother passed away. 4/4/07
I dont believeit. i choose to pretend it didnt happen and thats how i move on. I havent broken down like everyone else because i choose to keep it inside. Im mad at him. dont know what else i can say about it im just plain mad at everyone. My counselor at school and some co- worker deceide that its because i wont express my feelings any other way. yea ill cry once in awhile and yea ill blame myself but it doesnt stop me from being mad. I try not to be but i dont know what else to do.
im jealous of my brothers girlfriend my mom loves her more than me. end of story.
i fell behind in school, really behind i kinda stopped going because my way of dealing myself was to completly dedicate myself to work. i am a workaholic, i worked 80 hours a week for a good 3 months and i liked it. now im back in school trying to catch up, teachers are undertstanding and i cut it down to about 50 a week.
i feel lost.