Jul 10, 2007 23:02
This was written by Karen, and posted in her journal, but I'm going to put it here too. I don't really have anything to add to this. It's sums up our situation well.
"A whole heck of a lot has happened this last little while.
Difficult life-changing things.
Amidst Angus and myself buying a condo together, with the help of our parents, i came to realize that there are things i need to figure out about myself before i get married. Important things that, were i not to deal with them now, could lead to divorce or resentment or regret later on. Angus is the best man I have ever had the joy and honour of loving and being loved by. He is perfect for me in many ways. But i realized i still have unanswered questions about my sexuality; i consider myself bisexual, and have for several years. However, I have never had the opportunity to explore that side of myself much. Its important that before i can be with one person for the rest of my life; i spend some time figuring out what this means to me. I don't want to enter into a marriage with such large questions about WHO I AM.
Angus acknowledged that this is something that i should give some time to, and I am so grateful for his being understanding of this.
We've decided to take a break. Which, in actuality means, we're broken up until further notice.
Angus and I still love each other and respect each other, but realize that we need some time apart.
We choose to remain friends; but its understood that it will be hard for either of us to spend much time together right away.
Your friendship and support is welcomed and appreciated during this difficult time for the both of us."
I don't really know whats going to happen now. I'm packing up my stuff and attempting to find a place to live, but I may be couch surfing for a while, not only to give myself time, but also to keep myself from being or feeling too alone right now. It's going to be rough, but thats life.
I truly wish Karen all the best in finding out what she needs to do. I want her to be happy, healthy, and sane. I really do love her still, and I always will. We will see what the future holds, for me; for her; and for us.