Emotions suck!
Sometimes I realize I just need an outlet. Somewhere to yell at the top of my lungs, something I can take all my anger out on. But not only that, I need something I can hug, some place I can bawl my eyes out. Something I can look at and have all the jumble of thoughts that crash and bang into each other inside my head just stop for a little while.
The only 2 things close to being able to do all these things are writing here, or anywhere (mainly poetry, but other writing helps too) and World of Warcraft. Writing is just an outlet. Its just me and words. No interference. I can say whatever I want, and people can interpret it however. I can get thoughts out of my head, never have to actually think of them again because I know if it's something I need I can just go back and look at it.
WoW is a bit different though. It's a place where I'm NOT me. I can be whatever I want. I can be no one, or I can be someone. And it's just something I'm really good at. The people I play with don't know me. And they never will, not properly anyway. I guess it's the anonymity that does it. Being able to be someone and no-one at the same time. It's euphoric. Probably part of the reason why WoW is just so addictive.
The only 2 things close to being able to do all these things are writing here, or anywhere (mainly poetry, but other writing helps too) and World of Warcraft. Writing is just an outlet. Its just me and words. No interference. I can say whatever I want, and people can interpret it however. I can get thoughts out of my head, never have to actually think of them again because I know if it's something I need I can just go back and look at it.
WoW is a bit different though. It's a place where I'm NOT me. I can be whatever I want. I can be no one, or I can be someone. And it's just something I'm really good at. The people I play with don't know me. And they never will, not properly anyway. I guess it's the anonymity that does it. Being able to be someone and no-one at the same time. It's euphoric. Probably part of the reason why WoW is just so addictive.