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Being together or being apart.Leaving home for searching smth new and finding out only the fact that you dont know anything.And noone needs you like this.In the state of a total prostration.Somewhere out of life.And you dont even have time to ask questions to yourself.Questions like where have I been all this time and what I was spending my time on?reading useless books.Talked farfetched conversations..was it all made for the harder ground or for the better kick after(IF) I fall?And what a hard task to learn everything that I should have before! Its hard to grow and I knew it would be...but sometimes I dont see the sense of anything I do.All my leaving is just a great emotional experience..survival.Why should I be here,and what am I searching?
who sais that life is interesting.What is interesting about it.Sometimes just simple breathing makes me suffer.It's not like I was ill or anything and I know I dont have any right to complain.And I 'm not sure I have any rights at all.I didnt anything to be proud of.I live on my paren't money.I want to prove that I worth smth more that words.But I didnt yet.
I want to forget almost anything from the things Ive ever seen in mylife,bitter sweet,Sometimes so sweet I wanna die.I cant sleep.And waiking up,Ive got tears in my eyes.
Maybe It's the very feeling of happiness I just cant sustain. Thats so stupid feeling unhappy about the happy memoriet but thats how it makes me feel.Always running somewhere.Fettering fear of future and deploring about the past.Tha shows my miserable and weak person.
Do I really deserve everything I get? Cause its almost the best .So perfect I want to cry
Well..I guess its just the crying mood.Temporary...cause everything is.
who sais that life is interesting.What is interesting about it.Sometimes just simple breathing makes me suffer.It's not like I was ill or anything and I know I dont have any right to complain.And I 'm not sure I have any rights at all.I didnt anything to be proud of.I live on my paren't money.I want to prove that I worth smth more that words.But I didnt yet.
I want to forget almost anything from the things Ive ever seen in mylife,bitter sweet,Sometimes so sweet I wanna die.I cant sleep.And waiking up,Ive got tears in my eyes.
Maybe It's the very feeling of happiness I just cant sustain. Thats so stupid feeling unhappy about the happy memoriet but thats how it makes me feel.Always running somewhere.Fettering fear of future and deploring about the past.Tha shows my miserable and weak person.
Do I really deserve everything I get? Cause its almost the best .So perfect I want to cry
Well..I guess its just the crying mood.Temporary...cause everything is.