I'LL TAKE YOU BACK TO THE START
The school year is coming to an end. My assignments, along with deadlines and examinations are slowly trooping towards me. Today I peeped as my classmate draw out her schedule of April. A neatly planned out (and gridded) April she had in her organizer, peppered with deadlines and exam dates filled in. I don't know why I no longer feel afraid of deadlines and grades.
My friends and I went to watch Kings of Convenience a couple weeks back and it was the best musical experience of 2010 - so far! A very well made purchase amongst the other mindless things I exchange my money for. I also saw my sister's teenage romance end a few days back. Not much crying and wailing (or rather not that I heard of), but it made me wonder if I'd ever find someone who would love me so much that he wants to spend the rest of his life with me. I briefly mentioned that to the boys in school and they shrugged me off by saying 'You still have time to change you know? '. I don't think it's so much about changing myself (come on, I can't be that bad) but just the odds of meeting someone who is so in love with me, and reciprocating the love just seems very slim. Bizarre how I choose to think of such unimportant matters over my homework. Blah!
And the worst decision I made today was to head home instead of staying in school to finish work. I always feel this unexplainable regret on the bus home. Because I know, all I would do at home is nothing. And while my male schoolmates urge me to seek an orgasm (because they think that I am sexually frustrated), I hope Urgency hears my calling.
And I am still listening to Taylor Swift.