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everything in my life right now just feels like one big disappointment.
my family. all my relatives flew out from california last year to see tia graduate and guess how many are coming out this year? 2. yea. and my parents informed me that ill only be getting about $200 total (from them and all my relatives) for graduation. ok, i know that sounds a little selfish and im glad to be getting anything, but it just kinda sucks b/c tia got $500 from my parents alone, plus money from relatives.
my friends. not all of my friends, but the vast majority of them really disappoint me. if you make plans with me, i would like them to be kept or i would at least like a phone call saying sorry i changed my mind or something came up. and on that note, im not going to see a lot of your next year and maybe not over the summer either (if i go to florida), so if you could take 2 seconds away from your significant others before i leave i would really appreciate it.
myself. once again, i am completely broke. i have $40 left after paying my bills and it has to last me for two weeks. that isnt even going to buy me gas. fuck. had i not been an idiot and gotten fired then things wouldve been fine. or if i didnt get fucked on spring break and had to pay for gas all by myself then i would also be a little better off money wise.
my sister was supposed to be here at noon so we could take a picture for my mom for mothers day (since i cant afford to get her a real gift) and its 12:45 and she hasnt returned my calls. once again....disappointed.
whatever. im not trying to sound like a bitch and im not looking for sympathy. some people could tell something was wrong so i wanted to explain. and i needed to vent and im done now. sorry. im probably gonna get some bitchy anonymous comments about this entry too. oh well.
i know things will be better next year in college. im really trying to just wait things out and deal with it until then. i hope im able to stay in florida for the summer, i really need that right now.
ps - this is probably my last journal entry, i think im going back to pen and paper.
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my family. all my relatives flew out from california last year to see tia graduate and guess how many are coming out this year? 2. yea. and my parents informed me that ill only be getting about $200 total (from them and all my relatives) for graduation. ok, i know that sounds a little selfish and im glad to be getting anything, but it just kinda sucks b/c tia got $500 from my parents alone, plus money from relatives.
my friends. not all of my friends, but the vast majority of them really disappoint me. if you make plans with me, i would like them to be kept or i would at least like a phone call saying sorry i changed my mind or something came up. and on that note, im not going to see a lot of your next year and maybe not over the summer either (if i go to florida), so if you could take 2 seconds away from your significant others before i leave i would really appreciate it.
myself. once again, i am completely broke. i have $40 left after paying my bills and it has to last me for two weeks. that isnt even going to buy me gas. fuck. had i not been an idiot and gotten fired then things wouldve been fine. or if i didnt get fucked on spring break and had to pay for gas all by myself then i would also be a little better off money wise.
my sister was supposed to be here at noon so we could take a picture for my mom for mothers day (since i cant afford to get her a real gift) and its 12:45 and she hasnt returned my calls. once again....disappointed.
whatever. im not trying to sound like a bitch and im not looking for sympathy. some people could tell something was wrong so i wanted to explain. and i needed to vent and im done now. sorry. im probably gonna get some bitchy anonymous comments about this entry too. oh well.
i know things will be better next year in college. im really trying to just wait things out and deal with it until then. i hope im able to stay in florida for the summer, i really need that right now.
ps - this is probably my last journal entry, i think im going back to pen and paper.
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