"Kaity, it's over. I'm breaking up with you."
You heard it hear first folks. I'm now a single woman. I feel like shit. Dan wants this other girl that he's been hanging around with lots. Her name's Erin. So he broke up with me, because after only three weeks, he has no more feelings left for me. I still love him. I guess I'll move on, maybe even find someone else. I hate guys, but they keep me preoccupied. And by hating guys I mean what they do to you, especially ones with blue eyes. I was right. I decided to be open-minded about that because it was supposedly a crap theory. Nope. Blue eyed guys are assholes, oh well. Maybe it's better that way. It's a good thing I know that. I think maybe if I date again, I won't take it very seriously like I did this time. I'll probably still be in love with Dan while I'm dating some poor guy that has no idea. Or maybe I just won't do anything at all. I'll have to see what happens. I dunno if it's possible to really love someone who doesn't love you back. I mean, I think I do, but I can't remember if the feelings are there. I know I don't sound very sad, but I'm trying really hard. I'm more angry at myself right now than anything. Angry at myself for falling in love, angry at myself for not being good enough to keep him. I also feel apologetic, sorry for not being good enough. I've probably cried for a total of three hours already. I stopped to eat supper, which by the way just tasted like dirt to me, and then I had to start again. I'm trying not to let it affect me as much as possible, but it's hard. Don't be surprised if I don't show up at school tomorrow. I've just fallen off my first rollercoaster.