I'm still yearning for this world to stop turning.
Man I'm tired. Exhausted. With everything. I just spent 1 1/2 hrs washing the kitchen walls, I haven't even done half yet. Good thing I have my music on or I would get nothing done. I've started doing my own journal. In a real notebook in my room before I go to bed because that's the time I get to myself to think about things. The only time that when I write stuff down, it's something. Now I'm playing therapist for Josh. I like giving advice and helping people, but hell I've never been there before. I don't even know if I want to be there. Ever wonder why I turn every guy down that asks me out? Or did you just think I was too pathetic to even get asked out? I've just never witnessed a successful relationship. I don't believe it can happen, or that it happens often. So Josh is talking to me about "love" that neither of us believe in. Supposedly. I don't know why he's so stuck on her if he doesn't believe in love. I thought guys didn't have feelings. I thought it was all "finger her, fuck her, and forget her" Josh told me that most times it is. Great. That gives me a lot of assurance if I end up going out with Evan... I'll probably turn him down. Hey, I've been single for this long, why not an eternity? So basically right now I'm telling Josh to stop flirting with other girls while he's in a relationship. Apparently he didn't know he was doing it. ^_^;; "It's not my fault I like being nice to people." Yeaaah..whatever...
No one phoned me last weekend...*sob* On friday Mat, Julie, AJ, (Ryan and Linda for a bit), and Dan who I just met that night came over for a bit. Julie and Dan asked me that night to come out saturday to go sledding, so I went. Dan and Evan came to pick me up at around 9:30 pm (I dragged Derrick with me) I barely know either of them and I find out that they both like me, being that my biggest fear is rape well...I just didn't want to be alone. lol. Derrick went telling everyone that I like Evan, when I didn't even tell anybody that and I don't even know if I like him that much anyway, I barely even know him. So we both sorta knew that we both sorta like eachother, and we were both sorta too shy to talk to eachother all night. lol. Me, Derrick, AJ, Mat and Dan went in one truck, while Julie, Melissa, and Evan went in another. AJ said his dad made a trail with his tractor out to the hill along the fence, but AJ took the wrong one, the track faded out and he kept pushin forward and we got stuck. We tried to get out for nearly an hour and finally we had to take Mat's cell and call AJs mom to come get us with Derrango and pull us out at midnight. What fun. "the best time I've had in six days" Needless to say we didn't go sledding. So we went back to AJ's and watched Clone High. Then we all went back to Maymont. Sunday I didn't do anything but watch and play with the twins. And Monday I had to watch them all day while dad and Kathy were at work. Mickayla was on the toy phone and she dialed a number, picked the phone up and said, "hello? Helloooo....? HELLO?!" and SLAMS the phone down. She does it again, "hello? Hellooo? HELLO?!" SLAMS it down cause no one's on the other line. She does it again, " Hello? hellooooooo? HELLO? FUCK IT!!" and SLAMS the phone down again and walks away. Reminder: They're 2. XD Almost as bad as the turkey cock...but not quite. Who the hell teaches them these things?! *sigh* It was funny though. I'll teach my kids to swear when they're young like that it'll be awesome. According to Katelyn it will be next year because, "with an attitude like that you'll be pregnant at 17." Hah. What a joke. I'll probably be dead by 17. But lets not jinx it.
See ya
(PS: I don't want to die, for all you nutjobs who think I'm actually suicidal. Freaks.
No one phoned me last weekend...*sob* On friday Mat, Julie, AJ, (Ryan and Linda for a bit), and Dan who I just met that night came over for a bit. Julie and Dan asked me that night to come out saturday to go sledding, so I went. Dan and Evan came to pick me up at around 9:30 pm (I dragged Derrick with me) I barely know either of them and I find out that they both like me, being that my biggest fear is rape well...I just didn't want to be alone. lol. Derrick went telling everyone that I like Evan, when I didn't even tell anybody that and I don't even know if I like him that much anyway, I barely even know him. So we both sorta knew that we both sorta like eachother, and we were both sorta too shy to talk to eachother all night. lol. Me, Derrick, AJ, Mat and Dan went in one truck, while Julie, Melissa, and Evan went in another. AJ said his dad made a trail with his tractor out to the hill along the fence, but AJ took the wrong one, the track faded out and he kept pushin forward and we got stuck. We tried to get out for nearly an hour and finally we had to take Mat's cell and call AJs mom to come get us with Derrango and pull us out at midnight. What fun. "the best time I've had in six days" Needless to say we didn't go sledding. So we went back to AJ's and watched Clone High. Then we all went back to Maymont. Sunday I didn't do anything but watch and play with the twins. And Monday I had to watch them all day while dad and Kathy were at work. Mickayla was on the toy phone and she dialed a number, picked the phone up and said, "hello? Helloooo....? HELLO?!" and SLAMS the phone down. She does it again, "hello? Hellooo? HELLO?!" SLAMS it down cause no one's on the other line. She does it again, " Hello? hellooooooo? HELLO? FUCK IT!!" and SLAMS the phone down again and walks away. Reminder: They're 2. XD Almost as bad as the turkey cock...but not quite. Who the hell teaches them these things?! *sigh* It was funny though. I'll teach my kids to swear when they're young like that it'll be awesome. According to Katelyn it will be next year because, "with an attitude like that you'll be pregnant at 17." Hah. What a joke. I'll probably be dead by 17. But lets not jinx it.
See ya
(PS: I don't want to die, for all you nutjobs who think I'm actually suicidal. Freaks.