yin-yang-click-bang

[tantrictorn]

The other night I stayed on the phone with christina for a couple hours and she told me this little philosphy that made perfect sense about us. She said we were like yin and yang. And I guess theres no question about whos the shadow side that everyone loves only in drug haze or throes of rejection. I missed her so much she really is like the light side of me, when shes around I feel complete but not like in a lover's sense of the word, more like we're soulmates (not the overproduced hollywood sterotypical soulmates), more like people who belong together. Goddamn she explains it better....either way there's no question she's the light side cause everyone fucking loves her, she' just so blinded by the brillance of her own light she assumes herself in darkness. She's so afraid of being along but she doesn't realize how many people care about her...I wonder how long till my use expires this time?
SO ANYWAYZ enough of the beckoning end...
I spent new years with Blaze and Shane, "POPPING PILLS AND DRINKING BOOZE/STONE AND DRUNK COMPLETLY GONE" Chicken nuggets with cheese.
Well I don't want to taint this entry with my depression so I"m gonna end this one and start another one.

Driving faster
TANTRICTORN

"But what I've got to know is have I been wasting my time?"
-----DOWN, REHAB