Unwell
Shit happens... Someone once told me this...
Yes... Shit does happen... And it happened to me again...
In life, it's normal... In love... It has always been, but should it be that way everytime?
Men will always be men, and this fact hasn't glued itself firmly in my mind like epoxy but today, I got hit by lightning... I realized that I let myself fall, and fall I did and no one was there to catch me... Being hurt, having your heart torn into pieces is one thing one has to endure.
But how long can I endure? When will the tears stop falling like rain from clouds of sorrow... When will the hurting stop?
Funny yet ironic... There is this saying that people who protect others, people who looks so strong are the ones who needs to be protected... I have been enduring for so long that it already came to the point that I have already worn a mask so I can please everyone and not disappoint them... I have become so emotionally drained... I have become so tired... I have become feeble and weak inside.
It already stuck in my mind that I want to be remembered as the girl who always wears a smile even when her heart is broken and the one who could always brighten up your day even if she couldn't brighten her own...
I sit here now, thinking...
Thinking
Thinking how stupid I was to fall
Why is it so hard to say "good-bye"?
I sit here now, thinking...
Where did I go wrong?
What did I say that mage you look away?
What did I do that made you change your mind...
I sit here now, thinking....
Was it worth it?
Was I loved?
Or was I just used?
Right now, I want to find..
Arms that will HOLD me at my weakest,
Eyes that will SEE me at my ugliest,
and a HEART that will love at my worst...
But searching will do me no good.
I have to wait. But wait till when?
All I can do now is not to wait or search...
I'll let it find me...
Till then would I have found true love.
Yes... Shit does happen... And it happened to me again...
In life, it's normal... In love... It has always been, but should it be that way everytime?
Men will always be men, and this fact hasn't glued itself firmly in my mind like epoxy but today, I got hit by lightning... I realized that I let myself fall, and fall I did and no one was there to catch me... Being hurt, having your heart torn into pieces is one thing one has to endure.
But how long can I endure? When will the tears stop falling like rain from clouds of sorrow... When will the hurting stop?
Funny yet ironic... There is this saying that people who protect others, people who looks so strong are the ones who needs to be protected... I have been enduring for so long that it already came to the point that I have already worn a mask so I can please everyone and not disappoint them... I have become so emotionally drained... I have become so tired... I have become feeble and weak inside.
It already stuck in my mind that I want to be remembered as the girl who always wears a smile even when her heart is broken and the one who could always brighten up your day even if she couldn't brighten her own...
I sit here now, thinking...
Thinking
Thinking how stupid I was to fall
Why is it so hard to say "good-bye"?
I sit here now, thinking...
Where did I go wrong?
What did I say that mage you look away?
What did I do that made you change your mind...
I sit here now, thinking....
Was it worth it?
Was I loved?
Or was I just used?
Right now, I want to find..
Arms that will HOLD me at my weakest,
Eyes that will SEE me at my ugliest,
and a HEART that will love at my worst...
But searching will do me no good.
I have to wait. But wait till when?
All I can do now is not to wait or search...
I'll let it find me...
Till then would I have found true love.