welcome to the `po
=) i'm sitting here in the computer lab with Nadia. i don't have school today but yet i woke up at 6.30 because i was hitting up the `po for the day with erin (she has three classes, but is only attending her first one - French). arg. why the heck don't they have off for President's Day.? Nadia figures it's bc they have a month & a half off for winter break. oh well. anyway. so, i woke up, lounged around, tried to get s'more rest - then off we were. we had a really good conversation in the car. the majority of the ride was talking about me & rob - he and i got into a really big fight last night, heck, we were on the verge of breaking up, but we worked things out (at 4.30 in the freakin' morning) and now we're okay. when i got off the phone, i couldn't sleep so i stayed up till about 5.30 thinking and contemplating a whole bunch of shit. blah. so, yeah, back to the car ride. erin and i were discussing rob's and my fight, when we started just talking about Pete and Rob. More or less to the point of, how do you know when you're in love with someone.? see, the thing is, people say that when you're inlove - you just know. but how can you just know.? does it feel like a needle poking @ your heart.? is it that kind of ZING.? a sensation like that.? if it is..then i'm most certainly not inlove. but with rob, i feel like, i am or could be inlove with him. no, i don't get that zing. but i get a better feeling than a zing. i have a great sense of security when i'm around him. he's the first person i want to talk to when im upset, the first person i want to dry my tears when i'm sad, and the first person i want to share my joy with. over the years, ive matured so much as far as relationships are concerned. and im not as committment paranoid. =) all because of him. if the feelings i get with him about everything aren't exactly being inlove, then i don't care - cause this is ONE HECK of a great feeling that i just don't wanna lose. maybe in 5 years, i'll be with someone else looking back on this relationship and i'll think to myself, 'what was i thinking when i thought i was inlove with rob.? that wasn't love...this is love'. but if i do, i dont really care. because at this moment..it feels right.
..wow. i just realized that this might mean that rob & i have hit our more..serious stage. it feels good. different, but good. i might see him later today. he doesn't have school & since i'm off too, why not.? we weren't going to since today was gonna be and erin/nadia `po day - but since erin's class was just canceled, yano.? idk, we'll see what happens. nadia needs erin and i to pick up two blank VHS tapes for her before 3.30 - and i wanna get them early, to leave the `po early (if im seeing my baby) because i have to go to Barnes & Nobel. i was gonna go yesterday, but it started to snow. arg. speaking of which, i hate snow and the winter..i want spring to come, damnit.! =P four more weeks, man...just four more weeks.
yesterday, rob & pete came over and we watched shall we dance (pretty damn good.!) and this chris rock movie (or stand up comedy thing)..it was so funny. =) ahh, good times. oh.! Saturday, after work erin & i went to FRIDAY's with my freakin' buddy, GAN.!! holy nikes, i miss her so much. we're all planning to party or whatnot in a few weeks. =) eesh, im excited. this friday, erin & i are supposed to hang out with Gia (to the window - to the wall.!) =) then saturday, the 26th, im supposed to sleep over rob's because his parents won't be home. =) *let's hope i get my little friend before then, and that it's over by then.! sheesh. i guess that's all for now. take care.