Sep 28, 2006 10:55
Given free will, but within certain limitation,
I cannot will myself to limitless mutation.
I cannot know what I would be if I were not me.
I can only guess: me.
So, when I say that I know me, how can I know that?
What kinda spider understands arachnophobia?
I have my senses and my sense of having senses.
Do i guide them, or they me?
The weight of dust exceeds the weight of settled object.
What can it mean, such gravity without a center?
Is there freedom to un-be?
Is there freedom for will-to-be?
Sheer momentum makes us act this way or that way.
We just invent or just assume a motivation.
I would disperse, be disconnected; is this possible?
What a soldier without a foe.
Be in the air, but not be air. Be in the nowhere.
Be in the air, but not be air. Be in the no air,
Beyond the loose, neither compacted nor suspended.
Had I been free, I could have chosen not to be me.
Demented forces push me madly 'round a treadmill.
Demented forces push me madly 'round a treadmill.
-Joan of Arc "Free Will and Testament."