don't remind me
don't remind me that my birthday is coming up, cause that also means that the on the next day my dad will have been go for 7 months. i still can't believe it's been that long. i still forget that he's gone, i'll just be sitting in class and this wave will hit me and i'll just think to myself "gosh, my dad is dead". i still can't rememeber the last time i saw him alive, no matter how hard i try. i don't want to celebrate this birthday, not without him. i can't believe that he isn't going to be there at my first MassArt fashion show, that he's not gonna be at my senior collection fashion show, or at graduation. he won't be there when we get married, i'll have to walk down the aisle myself.
i miss him so much and as much as i should be excited about my birthday and the fashion show, i'm not cause it's not the same without him and it's another "1st" that my family has to go through without him. like the first christmas, his birthday. he would have been 52.
i still just can't believe that he's gone.
i miss him so much and as much as i should be excited about my birthday and the fashion show, i'm not cause it's not the same without him and it's another "1st" that my family has to go through without him. like the first christmas, his birthday. he would have been 52.
i still just can't believe that he's gone.