Nothing is real but pain now
i feel akward right now because of the whole band situation. i would feel bad for leaving chris and doing this othor band, but on the othor hand this new bad is like the greatest thing that could prolly happen to me, tomas, and eric because its amazing what happens when we get togeathor, we just click and shit just pours out of our guitars like magic. but when its just me and tomas and chris our music is ok but nothing to be real proud of. so i really think that there would be no problim with us trying to get gigs once we have some full songs done. wev only jammed togeathor like 4 times and we hav like 5 almost full songs (just guitar parts tho, no words) and its not like ne thing easy eithor, no punk at all, we get inspiration for the guitar from bands like Old Mans Child, In Flames, Metallica, Iron Maiden, etc. and we also have guitar solo's, bass solos, and many seprate riffs in one song like metallica does in many of their songs. and thats way more than we ever did in the othor band. i think that playing with eric brings out the best playing in me and tomas. i thik that the most productive and effective thing to do is to do this othor band. but i dont really want to leave chris, but also he has said some things in his live journal about mabe finding some othor band members and the thing is, he listens to diffrent music than i would like to play, i would like to play metallica, pantera style stuff and all he wants to do is like some crazy underground blast-beat noise metal that ive never even heard of. so mabe it would be for the best if he did anothor band too. because if he gets with some othor people that like the same stuff that he does then heel be happier with the music and he would like doing it more.but i really dont want him to be mad at me and tomas for doing this. its a once in a lifetime oppritunity. i honestly think we would all have more fun if we went to diffrent bands.