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I don't have any idea what to do about college. I need to strategize a plan of some sort. So here is just another list of things to do and remember in order to maintain the last of my sanity/good sense/any sense:
1) GO TO WORK from 12:00-4:00pm. ***CHECK SCHEDULE FOR TUES! Appointment with Schubmehl.
2) Set up appointments with Abby (Academic Advisor) and TeeJay (tattoo shop)
3) Fill out and submit one job application to local grocer
4) See Pat (after work) for a couple hours, ask questions about tools/materials around the shop
5) Bake some damn cookies, dammit
6) Kick self in the ass, call dad
7) Call MArie and DAVID. And John and Samantha.
8) Call Julie-- she is here this weekend!
9) DO NOT SPEND ANY MONEY.
I have been pretty damn good with staying within my limits when it comes to the money-thing. I have exactly enough to pay my medical expenses or exactly enough to pay another bill I have. Which means there is no way in hell I can pay both. The library job pays bi-weekly, and I don't know if I am still in the system for direct-deposit. I might not get paid at all before the second amount is due... ick. And since I lost some of my financial aid, I have a balance due on that too. So when I say I need to take time off from school and work, it does not seem to unreasonable. It's just a big enough sum of money that work-study and a part time job during the school year will take forever to make up the difference.
I wanted to get back in touch with people lately, but I have been extremely withdrawn. I don't want my parents to see me, because lately anything that has to do with Melissa is awful news. They need a break! The reason I want to move out isn't so much the arguing and stupid shit that my little brother pulls-- I used to contribute a lot to the household. For the past several months I've been in such a funk that my productivity has dropped very sharply. I'm awful for morale. I want my parents to be happy. They deserve it! I can't do anything about Danny, but at least I can do something about myself. I only wish I had started to consider moving out sooner. I thought that while I was in school I would stay at home, and I was supposed to be going to school for two more years... so now that things have changed, it just so happens I'm aching to move out when the money isn't there. So job-hunting I will go.
1) GO TO WORK from 12:00-4:00pm. ***CHECK SCHEDULE FOR TUES! Appointment with Schubmehl.
2) Set up appointments with Abby (Academic Advisor) and TeeJay (tattoo shop)
3) Fill out and submit one job application to local grocer
4) See Pat (after work) for a couple hours, ask questions about tools/materials around the shop
5) Bake some damn cookies, dammit
6) Kick self in the ass, call dad
7) Call MArie and DAVID. And John and Samantha.
8) Call Julie-- she is here this weekend!
9) DO NOT SPEND ANY MONEY.
I have been pretty damn good with staying within my limits when it comes to the money-thing. I have exactly enough to pay my medical expenses or exactly enough to pay another bill I have. Which means there is no way in hell I can pay both. The library job pays bi-weekly, and I don't know if I am still in the system for direct-deposit. I might not get paid at all before the second amount is due... ick. And since I lost some of my financial aid, I have a balance due on that too. So when I say I need to take time off from school and work, it does not seem to unreasonable. It's just a big enough sum of money that work-study and a part time job during the school year will take forever to make up the difference.
I wanted to get back in touch with people lately, but I have been extremely withdrawn. I don't want my parents to see me, because lately anything that has to do with Melissa is awful news. They need a break! The reason I want to move out isn't so much the arguing and stupid shit that my little brother pulls-- I used to contribute a lot to the household. For the past several months I've been in such a funk that my productivity has dropped very sharply. I'm awful for morale. I want my parents to be happy. They deserve it! I can't do anything about Danny, but at least I can do something about myself. I only wish I had started to consider moving out sooner. I thought that while I was in school I would stay at home, and I was supposed to be going to school for two more years... so now that things have changed, it just so happens I'm aching to move out when the money isn't there. So job-hunting I will go.