I Told Mum Her Future Son-in-Law's Name.

[tannierella]

Today I checked my e-mail and didn't actually realize at first the embassy had already e-mailed me.
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.Okay there's really no need for the suspense because it's not like I already have the scholarship.
BUT I DID GET PICKED FOR THE EXAM.

=)

DEIDRE IF YOU EVER GET TO READ THIS CONGRATS TO YOU TOO!

So that's one load off my chest.
I was really scared I couldn't even get to sit for this.

Now, I have to keep working.
4th.
Calendars marked.

It's kind of...
I don't know how to put it.
Surprising, but at the same time kind of apt.

My exam date was on the 4th too, last year.
So it has been building up for exactly one year.

Now it's finally here.
And I can see it.

I'm really happy, I can move on with my plans.

I feel a little closer to the skies now.
When I look up, it doesn't feel as distant.
It's a bit of a comfort.

It's also powerful.

Knowing. 
Knowing that I am living in the exact same world,
working, moving in the same direction as they are.

Sure, I still have a lot to scale,
much to improve on,
people to meet,
difficulties to face,
a time to come where I feel like I want to give up.

But I hope this will remind me how far I've come.
I'm not great,
I'm not perfect.
I may offend you,
I may be weak.

But I made it here.
and that's all that matters.

From hereon after, there's only life to stop me.
Nothing more, nothing less.

I haven't truly loved.
I haven't risked everything.

Now there's a chance to do it.
I'm going to take it.

I will not,
I swear I will not come back till I'm made out to be someone I think worthy.

so mk.
I hope you have a habit of reading archives.
Because this will slap some sense in the future you,
if you ever DARE give up.

I will hunt you down,
and KILL you.

I've got the fire in me.
mk.