What Dreams May Come, What Nightmares May Bring
I had a nightmare today. And it's as vivid as all my dreams.
I dreamt that I was in the studio, with the whole class, and Ben was in the centre of the space, and we surrounded him. Some were sitting on the chairs, some were standing - I was leaning against the table.
And he was passing out our grades.
As everyone got their papers, their expressions turned sad, or else gloomy. It was a sad state and I can feel the tension/grimness in the air.
When Ben passed me my paper - I looked at the grade, and I HOWLED in front of everyone, and broke down and cry.
When I woke up, I remembered the crying.
And desperately prayed and wished and hoped, that my nightmare better not come true.
When I went to class today, we saw Damla, the last person to present her work (she got 2 weeks extension) - and the critics that day (including anal Huren) grilled her - to the point Ben had to clarify that no, they're not attacking her, but they just wanted to know if she really understood her stuff. She's a tough one, for she can handle that pressure without breaking or anything (either that, or she really doesn't care - it feels more like the latter though, with arms crossed and a blank/blur look on her face saying she doesn't understand what the hell is going on).
After that ended, came the announcement from Ben towards a few Level 1s, all level 2s, and we Level 3s that he's resigning for good, and he's gonna go back to Berlin to work for good. He presented his goodbye speech and all, and all was well - the Uni's in the process of getting a new person to replace him, but I don't think they can find someone as awesome as him - gotta admit, but Ben is one of his own kind in this world.
And after all the Levels have gone back, it's time for the big thing.
Ben went away, and came back with the grade papers.
He started announcing names and passing the paper to the person whose name he called out.
And when he called out mine...
...I folded it without looking at anything.
And so do the rest.
We're all too scared.
Then one by one, we take a sneak peak. I hear whoops of joy and some sighs of gladness from others.
It's time to look at mine.
This is it.
No turning back now.
...I didn't fully opened the paper to look, but I looked at the grade from behind - so now the grade is some sort of reverse image.
I saw a vague figure of a 2...and a capital A...
...and I could hardly contain my surprised cry of joy.
Seeing my reaction, Aleks and Siew and Erika were super-curious to know. I try to compose myself and said that I'll tell them later. Shhhh. *wink wink*
But dAmN, Ben probably heard me and then he go and announced to the whole class instead =.=;
(UHHH!! BEEEEEENNN~~~ HOW CAN YOU TAKE MY ELEMENT OF SURPRISE AWAY FROM ME!!~~~~~~~)
He'd proclaimed, "Nobody got A1s, and nobody fails.
The highest so far, is only one person - and that is... *gesture to me, hand outstretched* Lammy."
The rest of the class turned around to look at me (well, I was sitting behind all the time) and I could see a myriad of expressions from genuine shock to the I'm-happy-for-you smiles.
And then I heard the applause. I could only bow my head and thank everyone for it - I was too surprised to do anything else.
And gave them all a big warm smile ^______________^
When everyone started going round asking who got what, one of the girls, Rebecca, she got up in a huff and left the room immediately. Some didn't bothered, but some like me were surprised by her reaction - we thought it's either the money issue or her grade issue (but I gather she probably got a bad grade and after all she has gone through, she probably can't accept it and had to leave the class...). Because all this while, she's a very nice and quiet girl, and we're taken aback by her sudden drastic change in behaviour.
(I think I'll need to check up on her later).
It turned out there's 4 more who got A3 - Aleks, Amy, Jason and Sarah.
The great Yekaterina Bobrova got a B3 only - on grounds she didn't present a model (not even a sketch). She didn't seem happy, but she didn't seem that upset too, so I guess she can take it / keep her emotions in check.
I am SO GLAD after all that waiting, and after that crazy nightmare.
Aleks and Siew were right - they did try to reassure me - that if you get nightmares, you usually get good things in the end, and that if you dream something good like say a flying dove, it means something bad will happen.
Strange ways Dreams work - but that's under Lord Morpheus' jurisdiction. I have no complaints, just puzzled ^-^;;;
Hence, I WANNA CELEBRATE TODAY!!! SHOTS OF BAILEY'S ARE IN ORRRRDEEERRR!!! *starts dancing XD XD XD*
Thank you to the weather gods up there for not raining today.
Thank you to the Dream King for the vision.
Thank you to all who has helped me achieve what I had always hoped to achieve, and now I've finally done it. My triumph, I dedicate to you all ^___^
Thank you to the forces up/out there for the way things have turned out.
And thank you, for everything ^____________^
And of course, thank you to Mysso, for all the hard work, sleepless nights, troubling days, and hellish sessions. This victory, I dedicate to you ;)
Now, I'm gonna head off to Asda to restock my food, and then it's showtime >DDDDD
-L
I dreamt that I was in the studio, with the whole class, and Ben was in the centre of the space, and we surrounded him. Some were sitting on the chairs, some were standing - I was leaning against the table.
And he was passing out our grades.
As everyone got their papers, their expressions turned sad, or else gloomy. It was a sad state and I can feel the tension/grimness in the air.
When Ben passed me my paper - I looked at the grade, and I HOWLED in front of everyone, and broke down and cry.
When I woke up, I remembered the crying.
And desperately prayed and wished and hoped, that my nightmare better not come true.
When I went to class today, we saw Damla, the last person to present her work (she got 2 weeks extension) - and the critics that day (including anal Huren) grilled her - to the point Ben had to clarify that no, they're not attacking her, but they just wanted to know if she really understood her stuff. She's a tough one, for she can handle that pressure without breaking or anything (either that, or she really doesn't care - it feels more like the latter though, with arms crossed and a blank/blur look on her face saying she doesn't understand what the hell is going on).
After that ended, came the announcement from Ben towards a few Level 1s, all level 2s, and we Level 3s that he's resigning for good, and he's gonna go back to Berlin to work for good. He presented his goodbye speech and all, and all was well - the Uni's in the process of getting a new person to replace him, but I don't think they can find someone as awesome as him - gotta admit, but Ben is one of his own kind in this world.
And after all the Levels have gone back, it's time for the big thing.
Ben went away, and came back with the grade papers.
He started announcing names and passing the paper to the person whose name he called out.
And when he called out mine...
...I folded it without looking at anything.
And so do the rest.
We're all too scared.
Then one by one, we take a sneak peak. I hear whoops of joy and some sighs of gladness from others.
It's time to look at mine.
This is it.
No turning back now.
...I didn't fully opened the paper to look, but I looked at the grade from behind - so now the grade is some sort of reverse image.
I saw a vague figure of a 2...and a capital A...
...and I could hardly contain my surprised cry of joy.
Seeing my reaction, Aleks and Siew and Erika were super-curious to know. I try to compose myself and said that I'll tell them later. Shhhh. *wink wink*
But dAmN, Ben probably heard me and then he go and announced to the whole class instead =.=;
(UHHH!! BEEEEEENNN~~~ HOW CAN YOU TAKE MY ELEMENT OF SURPRISE AWAY FROM ME!!~~~~~~~)
He'd proclaimed, "Nobody got A1s, and nobody fails.
The highest so far, is only one person - and that is... *gesture to me, hand outstretched* Lammy."
The rest of the class turned around to look at me (well, I was sitting behind all the time) and I could see a myriad of expressions from genuine shock to the I'm-happy-for-you smiles.
And then I heard the applause. I could only bow my head and thank everyone for it - I was too surprised to do anything else.
And gave them all a big warm smile ^______________^
When everyone started going round asking who got what, one of the girls, Rebecca, she got up in a huff and left the room immediately. Some didn't bothered, but some like me were surprised by her reaction - we thought it's either the money issue or her grade issue (but I gather she probably got a bad grade and after all she has gone through, she probably can't accept it and had to leave the class...). Because all this while, she's a very nice and quiet girl, and we're taken aback by her sudden drastic change in behaviour.
(I think I'll need to check up on her later).
It turned out there's 4 more who got A3 - Aleks, Amy, Jason and Sarah.
The great Yekaterina Bobrova got a B3 only - on grounds she didn't present a model (not even a sketch). She didn't seem happy, but she didn't seem that upset too, so I guess she can take it / keep her emotions in check.
I am SO GLAD after all that waiting, and after that crazy nightmare.
Aleks and Siew were right - they did try to reassure me - that if you get nightmares, you usually get good things in the end, and that if you dream something good like say a flying dove, it means something bad will happen.
Strange ways Dreams work - but that's under Lord Morpheus' jurisdiction. I have no complaints, just puzzled ^-^;;;
Hence, I WANNA CELEBRATE TODAY!!! SHOTS OF BAILEY'S ARE IN ORRRRDEEERRR!!! *starts dancing XD XD XD*
Thank you to the weather gods up there for not raining today.
Thank you to the Dream King for the vision.
Thank you to all who has helped me achieve what I had always hoped to achieve, and now I've finally done it. My triumph, I dedicate to you all ^___^
Thank you to the forces up/out there for the way things have turned out.
And thank you, for everything ^____________^
And of course, thank you to Mysso, for all the hard work, sleepless nights, troubling days, and hellish sessions. This victory, I dedicate to you ;)
Now, I'm gonna head off to Asda to restock my food, and then it's showtime >DDDDD
-L