loneliness lingers
I dont know why... but I feel so lonely all of a sudden. Stephanie was just here and she was telling me about her trouble with Erik that has happened ever since they broke up and how much she loves him, and I was just listening, and I didn't feel sad until she was like "Do you know what its like to love someone and how hard it is to get over them when it just wont work out anymore?" and I said Yes.. but it's been so long since anyone has wanted me.. so long since Ive been with someone. I just feel so alone, and I would even perfer the pain she has, because she at least has someone who loves her and that she loves. Im just really lonely. I wish someone was here that wanted me. I wish SO MUCH once again that I was either in California or Oregon... I just really miss Beki and Doxx SO MUCH. Beki dosent even call me anymore, her mom stole her cell phone so I cant call her and I dont have her home number anymore. I should call Nate for it.