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ok so i don't know how im feeling as of late..ive gotten myself into some stupidness which i sort of discussed last time i updated..i should have updated like i said i would to get everything out but thankfully a lot and i mean A LOT of crying has happened since the last post..
i feel better? i suppose..again not really sure what word describes how i feel..so i doubt ill even find one on the mood down there...
finally got my room into a room..it looks like mine..its a combo of my room here and what i had at college..i almost want to change it though to something compeltely different because this college feel isnt making me happy..im rather depressed about being away from people i love very much..and its even more depressing that out of those people i love very much only a handful (3) talk to me. and another thing is people who i know i would love a lot more if i had the time to love them have been talking to me and that just tickles me and makes me more happy than anyone can imagine because it actually means im being missed and now i dont feel like im missing people who dont care about me. thank you uyen (i know you wont see this) you have made me very happy in one sentence.
i really need to get some time aside to call christy..i love her very much and she also wrote to me which makes me happy and she called..its amazing how wonderful and powerful my connection is with her and we havent spoken or seen each other in a couple years now. I know that about of all my singapore friends she is the one who has always been there for me even when we are farthest apart and vice versa. this is not to say that my other s'pore friends haven't..it's just not the same. i know chris and i have grown apart and its actually kind of sad to me but im ok with it because we're still close in a way i know only we can be.
here i am rambling again..oh gosh. well i need to keep doing stuff and getting ready for possible job hunting today..hopefully i don't turn into a chicken shit again due to my lack of experience in what i want as a job..hopefully someone gives me a chance...culinary school you are looking so very far away right now (tears).
and happy bday to chris' andy..bdays are fun.
i feel better? i suppose..again not really sure what word describes how i feel..so i doubt ill even find one on the mood down there...
finally got my room into a room..it looks like mine..its a combo of my room here and what i had at college..i almost want to change it though to something compeltely different because this college feel isnt making me happy..im rather depressed about being away from people i love very much..and its even more depressing that out of those people i love very much only a handful (3) talk to me. and another thing is people who i know i would love a lot more if i had the time to love them have been talking to me and that just tickles me and makes me more happy than anyone can imagine because it actually means im being missed and now i dont feel like im missing people who dont care about me. thank you uyen (i know you wont see this) you have made me very happy in one sentence.
i really need to get some time aside to call christy..i love her very much and she also wrote to me which makes me happy and she called..its amazing how wonderful and powerful my connection is with her and we havent spoken or seen each other in a couple years now. I know that about of all my singapore friends she is the one who has always been there for me even when we are farthest apart and vice versa. this is not to say that my other s'pore friends haven't..it's just not the same. i know chris and i have grown apart and its actually kind of sad to me but im ok with it because we're still close in a way i know only we can be.
here i am rambling again..oh gosh. well i need to keep doing stuff and getting ready for possible job hunting today..hopefully i don't turn into a chicken shit again due to my lack of experience in what i want as a job..hopefully someone gives me a chance...culinary school you are looking so very far away right now (tears).
and happy bday to chris' andy..bdays are fun.