Memories of losing you

[tankdavinci]

i loved you so much
but you went away
thought i would die
never thought to see today

"how can i go on
without you at my side"
authors write,
"when i feel that i've died"

you're so close and yet so far
i could shut my eyes
oh, you're next to me!
but i'm wishing on a star

i spend my days waiting
and wishing and hoping and praying
this can't be real
not the way i'm feeling

how can i watch you?
how can it be borne?
i see you with others
while i'm so torn

you were the sun and the world to me
now you're shining on someone else
i'm left in the darkness, watching,
crying, retreating into myself

do they treasure you as much as i did?
do they know what wonder they've found?
i understand why you go to them
i'm left, without your sounds

i'm supposed to let you go
smile and say "fare well"
i try, really i do,
but the words are my death knell

i know you don't want me;
how can i understand?
i thought you were perfect;
all i want is my ring on your hand

time passes and feelings change
you'll get by without me,
i know you will.
BUt i have a terrible secret
i love you so much, still