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i compare myself to pretty girl on myspace and pick out all of my flaws, its pathectic.
i just finished writing a poem for mcgillen's class, now i'm going to read for mcgillen
then shower
then visit adam
then get some dinner
then visit jeremy at cumbys
i love jeremy, it's such an invovled relationship, ive never been through so much work to make a relationship last and it's definitely worth it. I haven't experienced one anxiety attack for 7 months, and for once i am happy, consistently happy. yes i do have my downers because of school and such but it passes within an hour or too.
about a year ago you could ask me what i want my major to be for college and i would say Music Industry (Arts & Sciences). and now i dont know. I used to be so sure that i wanted to have that as my career, but i've lost so much interest in it. I don't know if its because my life is busier than it used to be so i cant think about it as much but im so unsure. I love music, but i don't really care to go to shows anymore, i probably go once a month, and i dont really miss it either. I don't search for new bands to listen to like i how i used to, and i burn CD's now. Last year i never ever burned CD's cause i always wanted to support the record labels. I know i'm only a sophmore but it still freaks me out that i don't know what i want to do with my life. Holly tells me how she has a passion for music and the music industry, she loves being a shows more than anything. and i dont feel that way at all. I have a passion for clothes, bags, and dogs. So what the fuck am I supposed to do? Make designer dog carriers? hopefully by the time i graduate i will know what to do with myself.
i just finished writing a poem for mcgillen's class, now i'm going to read for mcgillen
then shower
then visit adam
then get some dinner
then visit jeremy at cumbys
i love jeremy, it's such an invovled relationship, ive never been through so much work to make a relationship last and it's definitely worth it. I haven't experienced one anxiety attack for 7 months, and for once i am happy, consistently happy. yes i do have my downers because of school and such but it passes within an hour or too.
about a year ago you could ask me what i want my major to be for college and i would say Music Industry (Arts & Sciences). and now i dont know. I used to be so sure that i wanted to have that as my career, but i've lost so much interest in it. I don't know if its because my life is busier than it used to be so i cant think about it as much but im so unsure. I love music, but i don't really care to go to shows anymore, i probably go once a month, and i dont really miss it either. I don't search for new bands to listen to like i how i used to, and i burn CD's now. Last year i never ever burned CD's cause i always wanted to support the record labels. I know i'm only a sophmore but it still freaks me out that i don't know what i want to do with my life. Holly tells me how she has a passion for music and the music industry, she loves being a shows more than anything. and i dont feel that way at all. I have a passion for clothes, bags, and dogs. So what the fuck am I supposed to do? Make designer dog carriers? hopefully by the time i graduate i will know what to do with myself.