Another dream brought to an end by a bulldozar...
I had an idea a while back of something that I wanted to do. But alas it will never happen... I wanted to jump the fence in the middle of the night so that I could climb Mount Norman with the purpose of smokin' a J on it. It seemed like something that would be worth saying I did. Last week however I was heart broken to find that my dream had crumbled to the ground in the name of progress. What is this progress? From what I have been told it will be in the shape of a SUPER TARGET! Though I guess that's better than a third Super Wal-Mart its not very much better and so I am sad. For as long as I can remember Mount Norman has been sitting there capturing the attention of anyone driving on I-35 through town.
Life is full of changes I suppose.
Even though I support change it is sometimes I difficult thing to swallow. There are changes in my life which I have been coming to terms with for sometime now which have been very difficult to accept. Living as an adult is becoming a hell of a balancing act for me these days. It seems every time I feel like I have an idea of what is best for me it always seems to cause pain and stress to someone else. I don't like causing these things to people, especially people I care about. This is probably why I spend most of my life bowing to the will of others. People always tell me to stand up for myself and yet they so often get upset when I do... go figure. At what point do I stand up and say I have to be honest with myself and do what is best for me? I'm sorry if you feel upset. I wish you wouldn't....
Perhaps it falls under the law of conservation of happiness which states: For every person who finds happiness in their life a person of equal mass and ego must find a reason to be unhappy. I know its a stupid law but hey aren't most!
It's funny how history can repeat itself. I guess life is a nutty place to be sometimes....
Life is full of changes I suppose.
Even though I support change it is sometimes I difficult thing to swallow. There are changes in my life which I have been coming to terms with for sometime now which have been very difficult to accept. Living as an adult is becoming a hell of a balancing act for me these days. It seems every time I feel like I have an idea of what is best for me it always seems to cause pain and stress to someone else. I don't like causing these things to people, especially people I care about. This is probably why I spend most of my life bowing to the will of others. People always tell me to stand up for myself and yet they so often get upset when I do... go figure. At what point do I stand up and say I have to be honest with myself and do what is best for me? I'm sorry if you feel upset. I wish you wouldn't....
Perhaps it falls under the law of conservation of happiness which states: For every person who finds happiness in their life a person of equal mass and ego must find a reason to be unhappy. I know its a stupid law but hey aren't most!
It's funny how history can repeat itself. I guess life is a nutty place to be sometimes....