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[tanito]

hey livejournal it's me and i need your advice. ok so ive known sam for 3 years and he's fancied me the whole time which i knew on and off (the rest of the time was spent thinking he hated my guts)and there were times when i fancied him too. so when we got together a few weeks ago, we hooked up and it could have been worse. but the whole time i was aware that he's fancied me since we met and i felt almost obligated to be with him now we've got the chance. but then he left for india and we're keeping in touch a little bit but i dont know if i should wait for him to come back and then have a long distance relationship or go and find someone who will make me happy here and now. i feel terrible for not being certain about sam but i also feel terrible for feeling obligated. and i dont know what to do. and obviously i still have a flame for jim and it will be ok when we're living together cos we'll just be friends but now, when i'm lonely, i miss him a lot. and there was this other guy i hoped would do something but im sure now that nothing will come out of that either.

dearest livejournal, i'm sorry to always be complaining about men but not a lot else is happenning right now. played at a wedding yday which was incredibly hard work and im still feeling the effects of it but it was good money so i'm happy about that. my only playstation game which i love to bits broke today so thats a bugger but i should be reading plato anyway.

aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaargh

thanks lj, Tani x