Are you asking to be beaten around the head with a christmas tree?

[tanito]

Oh dear. Today has been one of those days that you just want to end. Had a bad night because I was bloody hot and it was very weird sleeping in an uncomfy bed that doesn't squeak on my own. I don't like it. And there were no glow in the dark dinosaurs or clocks to keep my happy. so yeah had a bad night and then had to go into Exeter today shopping. OHFG bad. I love shopping with my mum for the money she gives me but the rest of the time its hell. pure hell. we had to go in every single bloody shop and she didnt find anything she wanted and i could barely walk so it was bloody hell anyway. yeah btw i nearly broke my ankle on thursday and cut it badly so am limping a lot. and everytime we agreed to meet with my gran and aunt (who we had met in town) mum was fucking late because she "wasn't going to not look in this shop just to make other people's day easier". Fucking hell but i was getting angry. And then finally we left and i thought "woohoo going home and i can phone/ be phoned by Jim" but oh no then we had to go and find a christmas tree because apparently i want to decorate it 2moro. first i'd heard of this. so yeah we go to trago and nothing there so mum gets pissy. then we go to some random place id never been before and mum says "tanith find a nice one" so i point one out and she shouts that its a cheap crappy one that drops needles so i walk off and we leave and then we went to B&Q and she found one that would do except it had no price and was wonky in the bucket. the guy gave us a fiver off thank fuck. that cheered mum up. then on the way home we dropped my old dace teacher's xmas card into her and spoke to her for a bit which was really nice and then came home and hid from parents and then Jim phoned me. Scarily i think the L word is starting to appear. and i'm happy. i miss him so much its unbelievable. ive only known him for 10 days and yet already i miss sleeping next to him or chatting about nothing. i turned around to ask him something earlier and then realised i was in exeter. its bloody scary and i dont like it. bastard christmas getting in the way. next year im boycotting it if somehting better turns up. then this evening i went out for a drink with alec and some other peeps and didnt drink bcos i was driving. i love having hefty back finally. driving rules my life.

anyway see you soon guys. any plans for new year?
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