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[tanisian]

I did something that was completely unforgivable, and I for sure, will never forgive myself for doing it. I hurt the one that believes in me, the one that's shown nothing but happiness towards me, the one I promised I'd never hurt, and I fear the damage is irreversible, things will likely never be the same again. I wish so very badly that I didn't exist, everything I've ever done to try and help, has been undone, I've likely lost any trust. My mind is racing, yet I have this feeling that .... that there may be a chance, but there's no reason in the utter existence of life itself that I deserve it. I've taken the one thing I know to be unbreakable, and I shattered it... the love and trust of a friend. The cause of this? My sheer stupidity and, my fear that what has happened was going to to happen. If only one could obliterate irony. I deserve the life I made for myself.
I guess it's true what they say.... You never know how much you love some one, until you loose them..... or even in my case, the fear of loosing them. But...... my fear...... My fear caused me to hurt, my friend! And that is unforgivable!

Sumimasen and Ai shiteru, My Friend:bow:

*Tanis*