i breathe in, i breathe out, put one foot in front of the other.
So here we go again, Sean and I, round three. Nothing has ever felt like this before. I have never been so happy with Sean or with anyone for that matter. On Tuesday night, Sean called me really late and we talked for a long time. He said it. I couldn't believe it. He told me he loves me. Like seriously. He used the L word. More than once. I was so shocked. I cried I was so happy to know that. The best feeling in the world is loving someone and being loved in return. On wednesday night, he called me and asked me to meet him and adam at steak and shake so i went. he hugged me in the parking lot and told me he missed me and wanted me back. that just said it all for me right there. he kissed me on my forehead and told me that he loved me and didn't want to be without me, ever. i about died. i was so pleased. then i kind of screwed things up with the whole jeff deal, but he forgave me and we are good now. i love life right now. :)
Sean,
Now that I am in your life, hopefully, where you will allow me to stay, I will never let that happen to you again. I will never hurt you that way ever again. There is no way to justify my actions except to take full responsibility for them and apologize to you. I was so undeserving of your forgiveness, yet you gave it with little hesitation. That means so much to me. You are the light in my world. I promise that I will spend the rest of forever making this up to you. Thank you for believing in me and believing in us and for loving me the way you do. Your love lifts me up and makes me more than I thought I could ever be. I love you baby. For now, forever and for always.
Tonight was the last chorus concert of the year, and my last concert EVER. I'm a senior. I GRADUATE in 2 weeks. Holy shit. This is so amazing. Music has changed my life in so many ways. I cannot believe how far it has brought me and the memories I have made in chorus. This has truly been a life changing experience. Without Miss Davis or my awesome friends, I could have never made it through this year. No way. As we sang our songs, I stared straight out into the audience and looked at my mom and Sean the entire time. When Island Singers sang "If Music Be the Food of Love" I looked back at Sean and he caught my gaze and stared at me throughout the song. He knew that was my song for him. "If music be the food of love, sing on, sing on, sing on till I am filled with joy." I felt so happy right then. It was like everything I felt for him was crowding up into my heart and I felt like it was going to burst right there. While we were singing Siyahumba and Homeward Bound, I cried. It was so sad. We sang Siyahumba in 7th grade when Miss Davis was first starting to teach at Jefferson. That's crazy. 5 years I have had her as my teacher and I couldn't be where I am today without her. I cried during homeward bound because its so final. Completely and totally final. Senior year. Graduation. Its all over. Time for the real world. It was so sad, but I was happy at the same time. All the seniors hugged and cried at the end.After the concert, Sean, mom and I all went out for dinner at RJ Gators. It was yummy :). Then we came back here and Sean and I talked in my room until he left a few minutes ago. He is so amazing, truly amazing. I am the luckiest girl in the entire world. Seriously. I have the hottest, sweetest, sexiest boyfriend ever. Life is soooo great right now :).
Leave me some love
Sean,
Now that I am in your life, hopefully, where you will allow me to stay, I will never let that happen to you again. I will never hurt you that way ever again. There is no way to justify my actions except to take full responsibility for them and apologize to you. I was so undeserving of your forgiveness, yet you gave it with little hesitation. That means so much to me. You are the light in my world. I promise that I will spend the rest of forever making this up to you. Thank you for believing in me and believing in us and for loving me the way you do. Your love lifts me up and makes me more than I thought I could ever be. I love you baby. For now, forever and for always.
Tonight was the last chorus concert of the year, and my last concert EVER. I'm a senior. I GRADUATE in 2 weeks. Holy shit. This is so amazing. Music has changed my life in so many ways. I cannot believe how far it has brought me and the memories I have made in chorus. This has truly been a life changing experience. Without Miss Davis or my awesome friends, I could have never made it through this year. No way. As we sang our songs, I stared straight out into the audience and looked at my mom and Sean the entire time. When Island Singers sang "If Music Be the Food of Love" I looked back at Sean and he caught my gaze and stared at me throughout the song. He knew that was my song for him. "If music be the food of love, sing on, sing on, sing on till I am filled with joy." I felt so happy right then. It was like everything I felt for him was crowding up into my heart and I felt like it was going to burst right there. While we were singing Siyahumba and Homeward Bound, I cried. It was so sad. We sang Siyahumba in 7th grade when Miss Davis was first starting to teach at Jefferson. That's crazy. 5 years I have had her as my teacher and I couldn't be where I am today without her. I cried during homeward bound because its so final. Completely and totally final. Senior year. Graduation. Its all over. Time for the real world. It was so sad, but I was happy at the same time. All the seniors hugged and cried at the end.After the concert, Sean, mom and I all went out for dinner at RJ Gators. It was yummy :). Then we came back here and Sean and I talked in my room until he left a few minutes ago. He is so amazing, truly amazing. I am the luckiest girl in the entire world. Seriously. I have the hottest, sweetest, sexiest boyfriend ever. Life is soooo great right now :).
Leave me some love