old friend
livejournal, at least to me, is a place where i go when i don't feel like i have anyone else to turn to. entries inspired by loneliness, and the false notion that i am not alone.
joe, my girlfriend, is the reason that i haven't posted for a long time. she took the place of this dumping ground for emotional scrawlings. but now i don't seem to have a place like that.
she wants to buy a house, a decison that is less than a month old and a point of contention between us. i make only enough to get buy, ensuring time for my school work, so i don't lose my full ride. she has a part time job. so she (or we) can't afford a house on our own until those things change. but now her parents are willing to co-sign something that the credit reports have accurately stated we can't afford on our own. worst yet, the house she has her heart set on would require 2-3 roommates to just make the mortgage payments.
so do i move into this house, which has no place for the messy material things that i love, tools, bicycles, etc. there is a finished basement, no garage, and every room is carpeted. her response to this of course is that i can just keep things in a (crummy & insecure) shed, to rust and rot away in the off chance it isn't stolen.
this house is nice, not much work needed, and in an up and coming neighborhood (a tad sketchy now, but a good investment).
so i am left with this decision, do i stay with joe?
i can't afford the damn place, and while she says that that is her problem, and that i only need to pay what i pay now, i know better. i actually want to share that burden, just not at this point in my life. but i want to stay with her.
joe, my girlfriend, is the reason that i haven't posted for a long time. she took the place of this dumping ground for emotional scrawlings. but now i don't seem to have a place like that.
she wants to buy a house, a decison that is less than a month old and a point of contention between us. i make only enough to get buy, ensuring time for my school work, so i don't lose my full ride. she has a part time job. so she (or we) can't afford a house on our own until those things change. but now her parents are willing to co-sign something that the credit reports have accurately stated we can't afford on our own. worst yet, the house she has her heart set on would require 2-3 roommates to just make the mortgage payments.
so do i move into this house, which has no place for the messy material things that i love, tools, bicycles, etc. there is a finished basement, no garage, and every room is carpeted. her response to this of course is that i can just keep things in a (crummy & insecure) shed, to rust and rot away in the off chance it isn't stolen.
this house is nice, not much work needed, and in an up and coming neighborhood (a tad sketchy now, but a good investment).
so i am left with this decision, do i stay with joe?
i can't afford the damn place, and while she says that that is her problem, and that i only need to pay what i pay now, i know better. i actually want to share that burden, just not at this point in my life. but i want to stay with her.