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[tangoing_hobbit]

This is the most important one. if you read anything, read this. This is the closest I can come to describing......

Mexican Loneliness
by Jack Kerouac
And I am an unhappy stranger
Grooking in the streets of Mexico-
My friends have died on me, my
lovers disappeared, my whores banned,
my bed rocked and heaved by
earthquake---- and no holy weed
to get high by candlelight
and dream--- only fumes of buses,
dust storms, and maids peeking at me
thru a hole in the door
secretly drilled to watch
masturbators fuck pillows-
I am the Gargoyle
of Our Lady
dreaming in space
gra mist dreams-
My face is pointed towards Napoleon
--- I have no form ---
My address book is full of RIP's
I have no value in the void,
at home without honor---
my only friend is an old fag
without a typewriter
who, if he's my friend,
I'll be buggered.
I have some mayonnaise left
a whole unwanted bottle of oil,
peasants washing my skylight,
a nut clearing his throat
in the bathroom next to mine
a hundred times a day
sharing my common ceiling---
-if I get drunk I get thirsty
-if I walk my foot breaks down
-if I smile my mask's a farce
-if I cry I'm just a child--
-if I remember I'm a liar
-if I write the writings done--
-if I die the dying's over--
-if I live the dying's just begun--
-if I wait the waiting's longer
-if I go the going's gone--
if I sleep the bliss is heavy--
the b liss is heavy on my eyelids--
-if I go to cheap movies
the bedbugs get me--
Expensive movies I can't afford
-if I do nothing
Nothing does