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AH the telephone is a wonderful invention.
i just spent half an hour + on the phone with julia. man do i love that girl...
and then ten minutes on the phone with tess, which was priceless.
i wish i had more to call all the people i love.
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i am so glad katie k (i forget her last name) came to speak in assembly today. i feel like i've been yelling about these issues for almost 1.5 years now, and even that was too late in the game, and for people not to have cared and listened is just tragic. think of what might have been different if we had heard her speak a year ago. the world is just so scary and reality is often horrifying and thank god somebody shook us all up and said this could just as easily be you so stop hiding behind the statistics. i was so proud to be in the audience. even though i was crying.
afterwards i tried to go to the fireplace room but i couldn't think or breathe so i walked down to the back of the parking lot behind the refectory and i dropped my bags and kneeled on a rock and bawled as i looked out over the freeway. i really wanted to throw up. my entire body felt limp and nonexistent. i felt sick. there are days when i feel like this thing, this school and this education is taking too long and i just want to go out and do something now! i want to go back to my internship at eastside domestic violence program and make a difference again, because i'm not doing anything now and i feel so guilty. i just want to go out and help fix this; it's so scary and i just want to fix it. this is one of my two causes and i cant explain how glad i am that she came in today even though my mouth is becoming bitter and i'm feeling nauscious just thinking about her story. the world can be so scary.
i just spent half an hour + on the phone with julia. man do i love that girl...
and then ten minutes on the phone with tess, which was priceless.
i wish i had more to call all the people i love.
[totally separate:]
i am so glad katie k (i forget her last name) came to speak in assembly today. i feel like i've been yelling about these issues for almost 1.5 years now, and even that was too late in the game, and for people not to have cared and listened is just tragic. think of what might have been different if we had heard her speak a year ago. the world is just so scary and reality is often horrifying and thank god somebody shook us all up and said this could just as easily be you so stop hiding behind the statistics. i was so proud to be in the audience. even though i was crying.
afterwards i tried to go to the fireplace room but i couldn't think or breathe so i walked down to the back of the parking lot behind the refectory and i dropped my bags and kneeled on a rock and bawled as i looked out over the freeway. i really wanted to throw up. my entire body felt limp and nonexistent. i felt sick. there are days when i feel like this thing, this school and this education is taking too long and i just want to go out and do something now! i want to go back to my internship at eastside domestic violence program and make a difference again, because i'm not doing anything now and i feel so guilty. i just want to go out and help fix this; it's so scary and i just want to fix it. this is one of my two causes and i cant explain how glad i am that she came in today even though my mouth is becoming bitter and i'm feeling nauscious just thinking about her story. the world can be so scary.