maybe is should have put this one first
Well so about 6 weeks ago I broke up with Eugene.
There was no cheating, I didn't feel disrespected, we never fought, there was more than enough attention, affection, intimacy, compassion, and patience.
To say the least, Eugene was very surprised.
You see, he has started his own computer business, and although he is struggling he is doing very well. He has expanded it into using visuals in clubs and has plans for much more. I am extremely proud of him. I see this as only his beginning and believe he will surpass us all.
I had this moment of clarity about two months ago where I realized that he is fine. He's going to find his own way in life and he didn't need me. At first I was upset and disoriented, but very soon after I felt amazing.
Over the years Eugene and I had created some pretty unhealthy patterns based co-dependence. Although we are not those people anymore, we always fall back into them when we are together.
I see so much pain in him, and I don't seem to be able to help him understand my whys. I do feel for him, really.
Mostly, though, I feel freakin AWESOME.
There was no cheating, I didn't feel disrespected, we never fought, there was more than enough attention, affection, intimacy, compassion, and patience.
To say the least, Eugene was very surprised.
You see, he has started his own computer business, and although he is struggling he is doing very well. He has expanded it into using visuals in clubs and has plans for much more. I am extremely proud of him. I see this as only his beginning and believe he will surpass us all.
I had this moment of clarity about two months ago where I realized that he is fine. He's going to find his own way in life and he didn't need me. At first I was upset and disoriented, but very soon after I felt amazing.
Over the years Eugene and I had created some pretty unhealthy patterns based co-dependence. Although we are not those people anymore, we always fall back into them when we are together.
I see so much pain in him, and I don't seem to be able to help him understand my whys. I do feel for him, really.
Mostly, though, I feel freakin AWESOME.