i think i m going to start this thing up again
a little piece of my mind.
It's so frustrating not knowing what the other person wants. Now let me be a little more specific... I hate waiting and I ask myself all the time why wait? not really sure but w.e. i dont think i can be happier right now.. or sadder at the same time. have you ever felt happy and sad at the same time because thats how i feel right now.
school is almost over thank god because i really truly think i can blame bhsec for everything that has gone wrong in highschool. im sure i could go on a rant but i will do my hands a favor and let my ADD mind control what i type. okay so moving on....
i have nothing to say or at least im trying to iron out my thoughts they really dont make sense. sometimes i really question whether or not im smart. its especially annoying when i try to say something and either it comes out the wrong way or.. i cant say it at all and i end up sounding like a retard (need of a better word).
i m not really sure what the summer is promising. i have a long agenda of things i want to get done.. for instance umm... obviously go to the beach at least 3 times a week (AT LEAST!), and other things like read i really would like to read 25 books. i feel it is necessary to set a goal of 25 books for myself because i know that i will fail.. like i do at everything..
speaking about all my confidence.. or cockyness.. i dont think i have either.. i think it's my mask for something else. not sure what. but w.e. im confused really confused
sometimes when you think too much your brain hurts and you get even more upset (when i use you.. well i mean myself) sometimes i think its better not to think about things and let things happen but its hard to get to the point where you cant think of things especially when your mind has been trained (like a show dog) excuse my horrible humor if you can call that humor... again this is me ranting okay so let me finish my thought your mind has been trained to over analyze things to the point where they become so... so.. you see this is an example where i cant really articulate what i want to say... what is up with our obsession with understanding uncertainty...? oh.
gnite
It's so frustrating not knowing what the other person wants. Now let me be a little more specific... I hate waiting and I ask myself all the time why wait? not really sure but w.e. i dont think i can be happier right now.. or sadder at the same time. have you ever felt happy and sad at the same time because thats how i feel right now.
school is almost over thank god because i really truly think i can blame bhsec for everything that has gone wrong in highschool. im sure i could go on a rant but i will do my hands a favor and let my ADD mind control what i type. okay so moving on....
i have nothing to say or at least im trying to iron out my thoughts they really dont make sense. sometimes i really question whether or not im smart. its especially annoying when i try to say something and either it comes out the wrong way or.. i cant say it at all and i end up sounding like a retard (need of a better word).
i m not really sure what the summer is promising. i have a long agenda of things i want to get done.. for instance umm... obviously go to the beach at least 3 times a week (AT LEAST!), and other things like read i really would like to read 25 books. i feel it is necessary to set a goal of 25 books for myself because i know that i will fail.. like i do at everything..
speaking about all my confidence.. or cockyness.. i dont think i have either.. i think it's my mask for something else. not sure what. but w.e. im confused really confused
sometimes when you think too much your brain hurts and you get even more upset (when i use you.. well i mean myself) sometimes i think its better not to think about things and let things happen but its hard to get to the point where you cant think of things especially when your mind has been trained (like a show dog) excuse my horrible humor if you can call that humor... again this is me ranting okay so let me finish my thought your mind has been trained to over analyze things to the point where they become so... so.. you see this is an example where i cant really articulate what i want to say... what is up with our obsession with understanding uncertainty...? oh.
gnite