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[tangibleutopian]

I feel like this summer has really been great but now that its comming to an end i have realized i have to come to accept certain things. One being I now have one more year of high school just one more. And so much more.. the person that has made me feel so comfortable this summer is now away at school, probably forgetting about me. the third thing is that i ve made really good friends that i hope can stay with me for the rest of my life which sounds pretty cheesy but i mean it, they are great. but i guess the one thing that distiguishes this summer from any other are the unique memories that i have made. I shared something special with someone, and for the first time i can say i felt it was okay to let my guard down. whether or not this person thinks of me as much as i think of them it really doesnt matter but the one thing that i could ask is please remember me, dont forget what u have done for me. i am not really to sure if this person noes how much they have really changed me and helped me grow up a bit and realize certain things that i really couldnt have noticed without their help. now i noe what a true friend really is and i know that i dont deserve a lot of the shit i have had to put up with and that i dont need people who make me feel bad about myself as friends. as hard as it has been to come to the realization that people really do grow apart and change i have accepted it and moved on ,yes i still think of them, and i def dont think they are terrible people... i dont noe i kinda dont noe how to put it.. we are just different. it is becuase of people like them i am who i am today.. i dont regret things i have done.. but i learn from my mistakes... i am a more confident person.. i feel like im rambling but its kind of healthy to do so. long story short.. i love everything about u and i love how u make me feel and i hope this doesnt scare u as much as it is scaring me.....
.. but i do noe one thing thats for sure.. u really realize what u have lost when its gone.. maybe not lost.. but u sure as hell miss it.. and u feel helpless when there is nothing u can do to get it back.
thats all for now im going to bed..

now dont go making any assumptions after reading this entry... thanks ;-)