Been a long time..
Wow. So I haven’t updated in like forever. But it’s a Friday night and I am at home like usual and bored out of my mind. I figured I’d update. It’s gonna be pretty long, but…here goes…
School:
-This year is probably one of the best years I’ve had in a while. It’s still hard for certain reasons, but I’m working hard to make things better this year.
-My grades are pretty good. Better than they have been in like two years. I’m working my butt off to them, so they surely better be good.
-My classes are okay. Pradie’s class is prolly my favorite because we do absolutely nothing in there. Except right now we are reading this stupid book and it is killing me.
-Chorus is fun like usual. I love Mrs. Elliott. And we have a very tiny class so we can always open up to each other and talk about anything. That is wonderful.
-Palladino is freaking hard! But it makes me think on certain things and I like that. However most of the time it gets on my nerves because it’s like we just sit there and drag the discussions on and on and that gets pretty boring sometimes.
-Chemisty = Lundgren. Oh Lord. Enough said on that topic. I hate that class. And I don’t hate very many things, so when I say that, it’s very serious. lol. It’s hard. I have a good grade. But I don’t understand why I have to take that class because I know for a fact that I will never have to do any of that in life.
-Geometry. Yates is okay, but I really miss Mrs. Jaeger. I don’t like math. I’ve never been good in math, but I’ve got a ‘B’ so that is good. It’s just horribly boring.
-Elementary Assistant. Ooh man. I love those little kids!! They are so hilarious! I’m glad that I chose to do that this year. Those kids are the best.
Friends:
-I’ve met some new people this year. They are really great and I love them. But I really miss those old days with my old friends.
-I’ve lost some really amazing friends over the years and I really hate that. I guess I just did something wrong, and I don’t know, I guess I deserve losing those friendships. But man, I really miss them.
-Me and Faith have gotten really close this year. I think that’s great. She’s hilarious. And she’s there for me when I need her. We have many memories! I love her.
Sports:
-Softball is coming up. Gees, I am so excited! I’ve missed it so very much! I think that the team will get along very well this year. However, I’m not so sure about the whole winning deal and stuff. lol. We don’t seem to have a pitcher…at all. But you know, that’s okay. I think that if we work really hard and work together, we will be unstoppable! :)
Singing:
-I don’t think that I have ever been so ready to fulfill my dream. I really want this so bad. I don’t really know how to explain it. It’s hard because singing has been my dream since forever and I use to perform and everything when I was younger, but then I stopped about two years ago. I don’t know why. I think I just gave up because I couldn’t picture myself singing in the future and because I don't have The Look. But recently I’ve become so into it again. And I work constantly at it. But because I had stopped for such a long time, I’ve lost my voice and I’m scared to perform again, or even get up in front of people that I know and sing. It’s hard, but I’m working my butt off at it and I know that this is what I really want and if I have to work my whole life at it just to get it…I’m willing to do it.
Guys:
-Well, all I can really say is that I’ve had my fair share at hard relationships. I’m sick of being hurt so much. I’m sick of being so confused. I’m sick of constantly thinking about it. Laying awake, just staring at my ceiling, listening to slow songs, and thinking about nothing except relationships…that’s got to stop. I can’t take it anymore. I know that I’m only 16 and I’ve got my whole life ahead of me, but I just want to know where my ‘Mr. Right’ is. Do I know him already, and he’s right in front of my face but I just don’t see it? Have I not met him yet? How much longer till I know that he [who ever that may be] is the one? Ugh. It drives me crazy.
-I like this one guy now. But I know that there is no chance ever of me being with him. And that is something that I hate too. If I know that I will never have a chance with someone…why the heck do I like him so much? Why can I not stop thinking about him? How come whenever I see him I freeze up? How come every time I hear his name or see him I can’t help but smile like I’ve never smiled before? What is wrong with me?!
Okay, well this is super long and I know that anyone who just sat here and read this whole thing has got to be horribly bored. So I’m just gonna stop it right here. I should update more often though. Okay, well goodnight everyone! <3