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[tangerineeeeeee]

So the past few days have been amazing. I don't think I've ever felt so safe in my entire life. Somehow I still want to die. I keep getting these weird feelings. It feels like seeing a puppy die or something. Just overwhelming feelings of complete and utter helplessness and hopelessness. I don't know what to do besides keep talking about it because sometimes I feel like it's not going to stop and I scare myself sometimes. I guess. I shouldn't write half of the stuff that I do down. Christmas is a stupid time, and not just because of Jesus.

I have nothing else to say.
Honestly, I'm lying.