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I have that awful feeling that runs from the front of my head to my guts and makes me want to roll up into a ball and cry and cry and never to anything else again. Except I have to go to work tonight, and class tomorrow, and I've got a presentation next week that I have to find resources for and I can see the shape of what I have to do but I don't know exactly how I'm going to do it.
I want to go somewhere where all these distractions are gone and I can concentrate and focus and think and not feel like my brain is lumps of steel in cotton wool. It hurts, I can feel it in my head, what it was like to think easily and clearly, how good it felt and I haven't been able to do it for so long that now it hurts.
I just want to make it all go away.
I want to go somewhere where all these distractions are gone and I can concentrate and focus and think and not feel like my brain is lumps of steel in cotton wool. It hurts, I can feel it in my head, what it was like to think easily and clearly, how good it felt and I haven't been able to do it for so long that now it hurts.
I just want to make it all go away.