here today, gone tomorrow?

[tangerinealtoid]

yesterday i almost rolled my car down the steepest hill on the Hogback road. i was driving with my sister when i found an empty, curvey, dirt road very appealing, so i was going too fast when i lost control of my car. i was trying to gain control again, when i turned the stearing wheel to sharply to the right. i was headed for the up-hill side of the hill where i would have smashed up the front of my car. so i turned it sharply to the left. i was now headed for the down-hill side of the hill where i would have driven off the road, traveled airborn for about 3-4 seconds and then proceed to roll my car down the hill which was at about 60 degrees and went on for about 100 yards. by all that was right, that should have happened. i was going too fast to be able to stop. but i did. i slammed on the brakes, and fish-tailed. my car was now facing the opposite direction to which i was travelling, and my back tire was hanging off the road. i should have rolled down the hill. i am amazed i did not.
throughout the whole thing (which only happend in about 15 seconds) i was not scared. i just thought "if i go, i go". too strange. my sister was scared though.
while this happened the 3 Doors Down song was playing that goes hold me when I'm here / right me when I'm wrong / hold me when I'm scared / and love me when I'm gone. i don't really like that song (its over played) but it has a diferent meaning for me now.
when i got home i started to cry. it was awful. i am glad to be okay, and i'm glad my car is okay. but i just wanted to say, "hold me when I'm here, right me when I'm wrong, hold me when I'm scared, and love me when I'm gone.