#2
The second question of my little experiment has me feeling bad again. I feel guilty because I know the "right" answer. I know how I'm supposed to answer this even if I'm pretending...then I'm supposed to walk away from it thinking about my real answer. I'd contemplate what it would be like if I could say the "right" answer...truthfully. Then, I might do some changes in my life. However...in my current situation, I just think the "wrong" answer is my answer. That's how much I need to change my opinions.
2. Which is worse, failing or never trying?
Failing. Failing is horrible. Rejection hurts like a bastard. Falling is awful. I have failed to the point of never wanting to try again. For examples, I am mostly talking about relationships with people in general. I have a tough time with social events. I have a difficult time talking to people one-on-one. I feel like I fail much of the time. And, getting more specific again, I really fail with the opposite sex. I feel like I'm broken...or maybe like I wasn't created right in the first place. I understand what I'm saying. I know I need to keep trying. I know I won't get anywhere if I don't try. But, I'm just so sick of failing. I need a win to get my motivation going...even a small win would help. I just need that boost again. The smallest win...some random guy in passing smiling in my direction...would help. I just need to know there's a possibility of a big win...even if there isn't, I would like the motivation to start on the positive path again. What happened to my positive person? I guess I need to incorporate a positive voice into the mental institution. I need to squash this belief that failing is worse than never trying.
2. Which is worse, failing or never trying?
Failing. Failing is horrible. Rejection hurts like a bastard. Falling is awful. I have failed to the point of never wanting to try again. For examples, I am mostly talking about relationships with people in general. I have a tough time with social events. I have a difficult time talking to people one-on-one. I feel like I fail much of the time. And, getting more specific again, I really fail with the opposite sex. I feel like I'm broken...or maybe like I wasn't created right in the first place. I understand what I'm saying. I know I need to keep trying. I know I won't get anywhere if I don't try. But, I'm just so sick of failing. I need a win to get my motivation going...even a small win would help. I just need that boost again. The smallest win...some random guy in passing smiling in my direction...would help. I just need to know there's a possibility of a big win...even if there isn't, I would like the motivation to start on the positive path again. What happened to my positive person? I guess I need to incorporate a positive voice into the mental institution. I need to squash this belief that failing is worse than never trying.