And yet, to say the truth, reason and love keep little company together nowadays.
Late nights always get me thinking, which I actually enjoy...most of the time. Tonight, I'm having heavy thoughts, and not the kind of thoughts that are tragic, or depressing, just heavy. They are weighing me down. I have so many questions that need answering.
Late nights like this started about a month ago. I have developed anxiety so bad, that I can't control it myself. I now need medication to keep myself under control, and I'm not ashamed to say that. I can't help that it is very difficult for me to control my stress and anxiety. I am learning how to deal with it. And every day, I get better and better. But, it isn't just because I have started taking medication. It's because I started taking risks and answering my own questions.
I started saying what I feel, without worrying about what others might think. For too long, I have been seeking the approval of those around me and it has got to stop because I can't handle it anymore. I can't be perfect. I can't be in every place at once. I can't be 100% committed to every little thing I am involved in, I just can't it's impossible. I've done it for so long and I can't let it be a part of me.
And, I'm going to let go and just be care free, and try things. I can't live in fear all of my life. That will get me no where.
Today my book is opened to a new chapter.
Late nights like this started about a month ago. I have developed anxiety so bad, that I can't control it myself. I now need medication to keep myself under control, and I'm not ashamed to say that. I can't help that it is very difficult for me to control my stress and anxiety. I am learning how to deal with it. And every day, I get better and better. But, it isn't just because I have started taking medication. It's because I started taking risks and answering my own questions.
I started saying what I feel, without worrying about what others might think. For too long, I have been seeking the approval of those around me and it has got to stop because I can't handle it anymore. I can't be perfect. I can't be in every place at once. I can't be 100% committed to every little thing I am involved in, I just can't it's impossible. I've done it for so long and I can't let it be a part of me.
And, I'm going to let go and just be care free, and try things. I can't live in fear all of my life. That will get me no where.
Today my book is opened to a new chapter.