i've decided
that i should maybe stop neglecting this blog so much. maybe if i start writing in it more often, i'll be able to write again, period.
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+ my left shoulder and neck have been hurting pretty badly since wednesday. i love my job, but it's even worse when i'm standing back in the kitchen or with my head bent down making sandwiches. good thing i'm off until thursday. called the doctor this morning, but i'm not sure what they'll tell me because i have no health insurance. i'm hoping they'll suggest a free clinic or something. that, or feel sorry for me?
+ unfoooortunately, i doubt a free clinic will help me out with some other issues that i'm not sure how to deal with. really fancying someone who is miles away is bothersome enough, and when you start feeling an even greater distance than the one that's already there, it can get downright depressing. on top of that, i have no idea how to communicate my thoughts/feelings in a situation like this, as usual. i could write them out with some success, but when i try to talk about things that really bother me, i get tongue-tied and brash.
+ i really need to brave it up and learn to drive, because i totally missed out on a potluck/circus practice last night and just sat at home, listening to music and thinking about stuff in a haze caused by rampant abuse of baby motrin because that's all we have after i wiped out our stores of advil.
+ in brighter news, i was given this cool cigar box ( that smells like cedar instead of cigars ) and fifty nairas ( a nigerian fifty-dollar bill ) at work and found out that i really like 70s japanese pop music. actually, just yumi arai, but if there are other artists out there like her, bring them on. also, swing dancing on tuesday night and a haircut, if all goes accordingly.