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I AM SO PISSED OFF. thats it, heres my fucking 5 days notice because fuck thursday. I give up. make you feel fucking bad for having him. How about when everybody made me feel bad lets remember those times. make you feel bad. im so mad right now i could take any random persons head and slit ther efucking throat while bashing it over and over and over again on the fucking floor. I have said nothing about it for how many months. Ive become good friends with him and we've all accepted him in to everything we do. I ask for one fuckign day a FUCKING DAY with the four of us and i get that.
You know whats so sad is you dont even see it when its right infront of your face. friends that actually miss you. I cant beleive i fucking wasted my breath tryign to be nice and sensitive to the circumstances fuck that i dont care about anyones feelings anymore. fuck all this shit. i didnt know that i was a bitch or a bad person for wanting to go over and be a fuckign girl. I seperate my fucking life so i cant have girls and boyfriend girls and boyfriend sometimes they can even mix but i need the security of my best friends because i know there always there and no matter what will always hold my hand or give me a hug when im down. But i wont deal with feeling bad for wanting that. The fuckign nerve of saying that we never accepted him. He is one of the best guy friends i have! and thats because he is your boyfriend so i put the effort into creating a good realtionship because i know it ment alot to you.and he turned out to be a great friend. but all of us have just had to sit back and deal with all the changes and we havent said a fucking word to you. we were the ones that sat with you through all that shit and all the shit that you went through in the summer and then meeting him and all that other stuff and now you have him and your happy and we've told you over and over again that we love it when your happy why now that that part of your life is good is things falling to the shits with the people that were there before and plan to be later on.
I get your side with the whole family thing and everything else you were saying but you werent even the least bit understanding to what all of us feel. you just got your back up and protected him. which is fucking bull shit. im sorr y it is. we werent attackign him or you or you together. Im looking forward to the summer and going over to your place earley just to hang out or going downtown and stealing more pins and all that other shit that teenage girls do. but if i cant have one day with just us girls please tell me so i dont have my hopes let down. I remember when there was a time when you wanted it to just be us girls too. that wasnt too long ago.
this was the only way you would listen ill delete this shit after. i wont waste my breath AND my space.
forget this. stupid mother fucking shit.
You know whats so sad is you dont even see it when its right infront of your face. friends that actually miss you. I cant beleive i fucking wasted my breath tryign to be nice and sensitive to the circumstances fuck that i dont care about anyones feelings anymore. fuck all this shit. i didnt know that i was a bitch or a bad person for wanting to go over and be a fuckign girl. I seperate my fucking life so i cant have girls and boyfriend girls and boyfriend sometimes they can even mix but i need the security of my best friends because i know there always there and no matter what will always hold my hand or give me a hug when im down. But i wont deal with feeling bad for wanting that. The fuckign nerve of saying that we never accepted him. He is one of the best guy friends i have! and thats because he is your boyfriend so i put the effort into creating a good realtionship because i know it ment alot to you.and he turned out to be a great friend. but all of us have just had to sit back and deal with all the changes and we havent said a fucking word to you. we were the ones that sat with you through all that shit and all the shit that you went through in the summer and then meeting him and all that other stuff and now you have him and your happy and we've told you over and over again that we love it when your happy why now that that part of your life is good is things falling to the shits with the people that were there before and plan to be later on.
I get your side with the whole family thing and everything else you were saying but you werent even the least bit understanding to what all of us feel. you just got your back up and protected him. which is fucking bull shit. im sorr y it is. we werent attackign him or you or you together. Im looking forward to the summer and going over to your place earley just to hang out or going downtown and stealing more pins and all that other shit that teenage girls do. but if i cant have one day with just us girls please tell me so i dont have my hopes let down. I remember when there was a time when you wanted it to just be us girls too. that wasnt too long ago.
this was the only way you would listen ill delete this shit after. i wont waste my breath AND my space.
forget this. stupid mother fucking shit.