& here we go again in this visious cycle again.
Im so tired of trying to be little miss perfect, fuck this isnt who i am. Im not the happy family type of daughter..i never was & i shall forever never be. Im trying my best to follow rules, help out around the house and just be an overall perductive part of the family but as soon as i starting acting like the "daughter" i think they might want here flys in the parents who makes all MY decisions for me. Im either the horrible does everything wrong teenage daughter or the little girl thats to young to have an opinion and know what she wants.
Im beginning to realize that are personalities really do clash. But we can really get along too. Dont get me wrong i really do like the whole outcome of the "happy family" but i feel like im just living in a sareal world. this isnt my world.
They dont fight anymore they "argue" and they try hard to keep there voices low. They realize now that it might effect me. it took them from the day i was born till the day they maybe realized there daughter was litterally ripping her hair out and bolting for the door at the slightest flinch of a fight to stop. There good parents. And i love them with all my heart. But i dont trust them to realize the things they do matter to me, because they never did before.
I guess now there not really doing anything wrong. and i guess are familly is good. But i used to think that the "happy family" would stay everytime it showed up..but it never did, and i dont want to think it will this time.
Im just unhappy that i have nothing to be unhappy about.
im so fucked. i wanna drive. DRIVE MY OWN JEEP. btiches
Im beginning to realize that are personalities really do clash. But we can really get along too. Dont get me wrong i really do like the whole outcome of the "happy family" but i feel like im just living in a sareal world. this isnt my world.
They dont fight anymore they "argue" and they try hard to keep there voices low. They realize now that it might effect me. it took them from the day i was born till the day they maybe realized there daughter was litterally ripping her hair out and bolting for the door at the slightest flinch of a fight to stop. There good parents. And i love them with all my heart. But i dont trust them to realize the things they do matter to me, because they never did before.
I guess now there not really doing anything wrong. and i guess are familly is good. But i used to think that the "happy family" would stay everytime it showed up..but it never did, and i dont want to think it will this time.
Im just unhappy that i have nothing to be unhappy about.
im so fucked. i wanna drive. DRIVE MY OWN JEEP. btiches