because the things ive never been ill never be..
"Three fallen angels" a unnatural setting with completely natural results.
The movies good..made me feel something for the characters..it made me feel sorry that there is probably no one out there that knows what it feels like. Made me angry because i wish i knew what it was like because then maybe ..they wouldnt be the only ones..and then i wouldnt feel so sad
something ive never been able to accomplish is being original..ive always simply hoverd over non-exsistance, in that way.
Ive never been succesful in finding a nail polish that suits me -but i think the times have changed.
I miss the beach ..i havent been there in ages. damn my body and the mind that comes with it.
oddly enough i do want to go to the trailer but I hate being away from christopher, I hate Having to stand at the pay phone with a bunch of drunk friends flopping around saying "oo chrissy" while having the some what sober guys saying "is that the boyfriend ..let me talk to him now!" For once in my life i want to wear a bikini. A nice bikini.fuk..any bikini. But who do i have to show off to? no one cause i dont even care about the other guys there. plus the fact that i've known them all for many years. But the only guy that i care what he thinks wont be there. because even if he was allowed ..hes to stubborn to accept the invitations, because of all the "family" problems.
And me go to a pool HA i havent been there in years for the pure reason of all the hot girls with washboard stomaches and skinny legs that i would be shadowed by And plus my day would probably be ruined by me thinking that my boyfriend would rather be with some other girl that looks perfect from a far..but i know upclose there far from it, but in a place like this ..looks are all that count to the majority of the population
And it bothers me to know ..in my eyes..i just dont make the cut. But you forget the majority of the population that only thinks of looks ..dont actually have them themselfs.which in another way make me feel .....normal.
I havent talked to my dad in..i think this is the starting of the third week. He makes small attempts which even if i did give an attempt back wouldnt go anywhere worth going. Ive always been told my dad can be a very cold person..and i beleive it, because ive seen it. My mother tells me its is fathers fault. And he tries not to be like his father to me. But guess what it doesnt work and his dad slips through every now and again ..and im sorry i feel really bad for my dad and i wish that he didnt have to go through some of the things i know hes gone through ..but i cant and i wont be punished for it. If thats the way he deals with things..then i cant be apart of his life. Ive watched what happens and when i couldnt do anything about it i made a promise that when it came to my turn ..it would be different ..i wouldnt be like my mother..id be stronger. And im keeping my promise, for once when put in the situation ill do what i always said i would..
I love you daddy....
there was this 13 yr old girl i was reading her l.j or something and she had a bunch of her friends in her pictures and she was goin on saying how much she loves all her friends (theres about 10 girls) and there just going into highschool next year or something and how they'll be her best friends forever!
yea alright..i wish i could give that girl some sort of advice on how not to be so niave. But..what can you do we all thought it at one point
i need some pretty earings to really bring out my breasts LOL where did that come from ..such a naughty naughty little girl. rawr!
The movies good..made me feel something for the characters..it made me feel sorry that there is probably no one out there that knows what it feels like. Made me angry because i wish i knew what it was like because then maybe ..they wouldnt be the only ones..and then i wouldnt feel so sad
something ive never been able to accomplish is being original..ive always simply hoverd over non-exsistance, in that way.
Ive never been succesful in finding a nail polish that suits me -but i think the times have changed.
I miss the beach ..i havent been there in ages. damn my body and the mind that comes with it.
oddly enough i do want to go to the trailer but I hate being away from christopher, I hate Having to stand at the pay phone with a bunch of drunk friends flopping around saying "oo chrissy" while having the some what sober guys saying "is that the boyfriend ..let me talk to him now!" For once in my life i want to wear a bikini. A nice bikini.fuk..any bikini. But who do i have to show off to? no one cause i dont even care about the other guys there. plus the fact that i've known them all for many years. But the only guy that i care what he thinks wont be there. because even if he was allowed ..hes to stubborn to accept the invitations, because of all the "family" problems.
And me go to a pool HA i havent been there in years for the pure reason of all the hot girls with washboard stomaches and skinny legs that i would be shadowed by And plus my day would probably be ruined by me thinking that my boyfriend would rather be with some other girl that looks perfect from a far..but i know upclose there far from it, but in a place like this ..looks are all that count to the majority of the population
And it bothers me to know ..in my eyes..i just dont make the cut. But you forget the majority of the population that only thinks of looks ..dont actually have them themselfs.which in another way make me feel .....normal.
I havent talked to my dad in..i think this is the starting of the third week. He makes small attempts which even if i did give an attempt back wouldnt go anywhere worth going. Ive always been told my dad can be a very cold person..and i beleive it, because ive seen it. My mother tells me its is fathers fault. And he tries not to be like his father to me. But guess what it doesnt work and his dad slips through every now and again ..and im sorry i feel really bad for my dad and i wish that he didnt have to go through some of the things i know hes gone through ..but i cant and i wont be punished for it. If thats the way he deals with things..then i cant be apart of his life. Ive watched what happens and when i couldnt do anything about it i made a promise that when it came to my turn ..it would be different ..i wouldnt be like my mother..id be stronger. And im keeping my promise, for once when put in the situation ill do what i always said i would..
I love you daddy....
there was this 13 yr old girl i was reading her l.j or something and she had a bunch of her friends in her pictures and she was goin on saying how much she loves all her friends (theres about 10 girls) and there just going into highschool next year or something and how they'll be her best friends forever!
yea alright..i wish i could give that girl some sort of advice on how not to be so niave. But..what can you do we all thought it at one point
i need some pretty earings to really bring out my breasts LOL where did that come from ..such a naughty naughty little girl. rawr!