WOW!!!
my head really hurts... not that pounding kind of ache... the ache that u get wen you try and think too hard, or when u STRESS to much about something...
went and talked to Linda Potter and got back to class (compleatly LOST in the project, not good) at about 2ish. we talked and she wants to see me sometime next week too to help me out. (u know with stress management stuff) she's cool to a certain point then she just gets really weird about stuff, i mean she is married to tim the president of the school who as by far the most craziest man i have ever met, and who is good at being a president of a school like this... but NOT as an instructor.
i want to lash out, and just go ape wall on some people sometimes. but i don't, i keep most of all my feelings inside. and i think that's what's really bugging me as well as work, school, still not over josh handwerker (and it's been like 7 months scince he broke up with me), my car accident i was in last december, my mom's law suit (about her death), worried about dad and my lil buggers, and simply just scared of saying anything any more to any one.
but my painting did get finished and it is the absolute the best that i've ever done in my life!!!! (it's my icon for lj now, took a pic of it) i am very proud of it, but not proud of the stress that i have (or had) to deal with.
now what?
i have academics today and i'm TOTALLY not prepared for the test. i crammed in the reading that i had to do in order to present the chapter to the class- but not the studing for the test. i'm going to go up to Norm (the teacher guy) and apolize to him about not being prepared for it... i'm not expecting any speacial treatment but just i want him to know that i worked (a job and on my painting) all weekend and that i'm sorry for not doing the studing for the class. i could just not go to class and take it the next time i'm in class.... but that would be VERY wrong of me to do to my group talking about chapter6.
then i gotta meet with my lawyer today about my accident (in dec of 03) and see if we are ready to give the insurance company an figure to start with....
i really want to sleep!
went and talked to Linda Potter and got back to class (compleatly LOST in the project, not good) at about 2ish. we talked and she wants to see me sometime next week too to help me out. (u know with stress management stuff) she's cool to a certain point then she just gets really weird about stuff, i mean she is married to tim the president of the school who as by far the most craziest man i have ever met, and who is good at being a president of a school like this... but NOT as an instructor.
i want to lash out, and just go ape wall on some people sometimes. but i don't, i keep most of all my feelings inside. and i think that's what's really bugging me as well as work, school, still not over josh handwerker (and it's been like 7 months scince he broke up with me), my car accident i was in last december, my mom's law suit (about her death), worried about dad and my lil buggers, and simply just scared of saying anything any more to any one.
but my painting did get finished and it is the absolute the best that i've ever done in my life!!!! (it's my icon for lj now, took a pic of it) i am very proud of it, but not proud of the stress that i have (or had) to deal with.
now what?
i have academics today and i'm TOTALLY not prepared for the test. i crammed in the reading that i had to do in order to present the chapter to the class- but not the studing for the test. i'm going to go up to Norm (the teacher guy) and apolize to him about not being prepared for it... i'm not expecting any speacial treatment but just i want him to know that i worked (a job and on my painting) all weekend and that i'm sorry for not doing the studing for the class. i could just not go to class and take it the next time i'm in class.... but that would be VERY wrong of me to do to my group talking about chapter6.
then i gotta meet with my lawyer today about my accident (in dec of 03) and see if we are ready to give the insurance company an figure to start with....
i really want to sleep!