What's going on....
I watched the TV sit come, 7th Heaven, tonight and everybody was "happy" when they were mourning over Annie's father's passing. It was odd.
Earlier I called Matt (he was at work) got his voice mail. Then I called him from my land line (it was long distance) and *67 it, so it was a blocked number (so he couldn't see that it was me calling), to see if he would answer it. He did, we talked fer a bit the I let him get back to work. But I asked him to call me back later on, when he got off. He told me that he got off at about 8ish and that he would. Hum.... right now as I type this it is about 10:07 pm and uh- yeah, no phone call.
I made dinner for Niki and I. It was good, used my George Foreman Grill to cook the chicken, and then about two other pans to cook the veggies and the sauce. I did a really good job! Niki cleaned up the kitchen too (I was happy about that).
I just got off the phone with my friend Jamison. We were org. set up by a friend at Calvery Christian Center last year. We doubled dated (he and I both each other's blind date) January 11th. We "talked" after the date, but he decided that it's be best that we didn't "date" or "talked" in that way. Well- really he told me bluntly that he didn't want to be my friend (yeah I hung up on him, then). But recently (since I've moved up here to Dayton) we have been hanging out (or trying to) each and everytime I got home. We meet up for dinner or what not, and just talk. I admit he's cute and nice. But I don't know about him, and I don't know why. But tonight when we were talking, I asked him if he was dating anybody, and he told me that he's met some girls, but no he wasn't. He said that right now he'd just too busy to date. That when it's time for him to date, God will show and tell him who and when.
Then I told him what was up with me, I told him about my date with Matt (a little). Then I told him about what I am going through (well, my body is going through) and how there is something wrong. And I don't know what. I asked him to pray about it. He said he would. I then told him about my trip to Chicago and how much fun (but eye opening it was). We are just friends, which is good. I need that.
Hum... I guess I am just feeling alone right now. I know I'm not b/c Niki is here. But really? Think about it.... she's only been here since June and she's 18. I don't know her and she doesn't know me, so I can't confide in her. And I won't confide in her, b/c she is young and not really use to this world of being out on her own. Feeling alone, b/c I really thought that Matt liked me. I mean we kissed? Doesn't that mean anything? I like him, not a lot just yet- b/c I hardly know him... but what I do know of him I really like him. He's got a really good heart of worship (or at least I see that in him), his family is really nice (I like his neice and nephew they are so cute). He's a bliever in Jesus Christ- and he's totally into church, which is totally AWESOME. So what's wrong? That's a really good question, b/c I don't know? I think I may send him an email asking him what is up? And what's going through his mind? I don't know...... I feel so alone
Earlier I called Matt (he was at work) got his voice mail. Then I called him from my land line (it was long distance) and *67 it, so it was a blocked number (so he couldn't see that it was me calling), to see if he would answer it. He did, we talked fer a bit the I let him get back to work. But I asked him to call me back later on, when he got off. He told me that he got off at about 8ish and that he would. Hum.... right now as I type this it is about 10:07 pm and uh- yeah, no phone call.
I made dinner for Niki and I. It was good, used my George Foreman Grill to cook the chicken, and then about two other pans to cook the veggies and the sauce. I did a really good job! Niki cleaned up the kitchen too (I was happy about that).
I just got off the phone with my friend Jamison. We were org. set up by a friend at Calvery Christian Center last year. We doubled dated (he and I both each other's blind date) January 11th. We "talked" after the date, but he decided that it's be best that we didn't "date" or "talked" in that way. Well- really he told me bluntly that he didn't want to be my friend (yeah I hung up on him, then). But recently (since I've moved up here to Dayton) we have been hanging out (or trying to) each and everytime I got home. We meet up for dinner or what not, and just talk. I admit he's cute and nice. But I don't know about him, and I don't know why. But tonight when we were talking, I asked him if he was dating anybody, and he told me that he's met some girls, but no he wasn't. He said that right now he'd just too busy to date. That when it's time for him to date, God will show and tell him who and when.
Then I told him what was up with me, I told him about my date with Matt (a little). Then I told him about what I am going through (well, my body is going through) and how there is something wrong. And I don't know what. I asked him to pray about it. He said he would. I then told him about my trip to Chicago and how much fun (but eye opening it was). We are just friends, which is good. I need that.
Hum... I guess I am just feeling alone right now. I know I'm not b/c Niki is here. But really? Think about it.... she's only been here since June and she's 18. I don't know her and she doesn't know me, so I can't confide in her. And I won't confide in her, b/c she is young and not really use to this world of being out on her own. Feeling alone, b/c I really thought that Matt liked me. I mean we kissed? Doesn't that mean anything? I like him, not a lot just yet- b/c I hardly know him... but what I do know of him I really like him. He's got a really good heart of worship (or at least I see that in him), his family is really nice (I like his neice and nephew they are so cute). He's a bliever in Jesus Christ- and he's totally into church, which is totally AWESOME. So what's wrong? That's a really good question, b/c I don't know? I think I may send him an email asking him what is up? And what's going through his mind? I don't know...... I feel so alone